Recent content by abandon455

Yea, i found it out later. She changed entirely as a person. I was the best thing to happen to her and i was the love of her life then i became someone trying to control her and never liked her, it was two huge extreme’s and it happened quickly.

I had C-ptsd before, but a break up with a borderline is like a nightmare. Being gaslighted, finding out the person i knew was a mirror then being disgarded and treated like i killed someone. Affected my psyche pretty hard. I had no idea what it was, when i posted on here everyone said it didn’t...

it's been awhile since i posted and since then a lot has happened. here's a summary of events since. 1.She eventually cut me out of her life and said " she should of just killed herself and said she would leave me alone" when hours prior it was" she didn't know if or when we were going to see...

i think the hard part is, is how it went and ended. talking about marriage, taking her to work that day and getting into a dumb argument three months ago and talked about seeing a movie together the following week would be the last time i seen her or got a call. then it went to a break to a...

Yes, i’ve been seeing my threapist for 4 months now. I needed to walk away from the forum for a day after reading friday’s comment. Made me feel more not normal. It’s scary to me, because having someone i was so close to regardless of reason or how long ago. Tell me that if i approached them...

I've recently been diagnosed with developmental / PTSD , if you've read my posts you know i've been going through a break up. but I've been going feelings and thoughts i don't know if there normal. ever since i was young, i never felt i belonged and that everyone would eventually leave. with...

Usually they always think others are in the wrong.

Do people like that ever change or learn or just do it forever?

Yea, i try not to be kept around and ignore it just to get guilt or maybe i’ll just go away forever then or told 80 times how were not getting back together. And being explained how she doesint trust me and since she doesint she cant see me and if she cant see me then we need to be done. It’s...

i'm looking into how to block her. what she is doing is cruel. she's not in or out she's just emotionally being manipulative and awful. most people leave or stay they don't stay in center and want to keep you around but not really.

I’m ignoring her, she sends me texts that make me cry and fill me with anexity. She’s constantly threating to walk or leave Or guilt me with shes some evil bitch and maybe she should just leave if thats how i feel because i bring up how her cussing and threats and bringing up the past hurt me...

Yes, only texting for three months. She refuses to call or see me because she does not trust me and is not comfortable with that and says she can’t. Alot of the things she says are nonsenseical. She has PTSD and psychosis and she contradicts herself all the time. Like she saying things like, you...

Yea, i need to not reply to anything. She’s nice to everyone but me, she says i love you to them and is there for them just not me. She threatens to stop talking to me or to leave all the time almsot everyday. She calls me setting boundries as condescending or talking down to Her. She refuses...

I guess i have a issue with seeing the best in people hoping there still the good people i met or knew. Sometimes i’m afraid to close all doors in case maybe they learn or learn from there mistakes. I don’t hate her but i hate who she is now, i hate the i love and miss you and then i don’t know...

I’ll block her if she calls, but i doubt she will or ever try to see me again.