abandon455
Bronze Member
it's been awhile since i posted and since then a lot has happened. here's a summary of events since.
1.She eventually cut me out of her life and said " she should of just killed herself and said she would leave me alone" when hours prior it was" she didn't know if or when we were going to see each other again and need to deal with it".
2.i've been in therapy since, my counselor thinks she was BPD not PTSD due to the discard and nonsense of it.
3. i've been diagnosed with C-PTSD and i have flashbacks of her when i walk by places we used to frequent and nightmares, I now avoid those places and I had one today when i saw her mom's car Likely picking her up and had these huge intense emotions and memory's.
4. she has not reached out to me since and has pretty much cut me out of her life and never called or saw me in person and never had any closure .
5. i've shut down my social media and blocked her number and basically have become a ghost.
6. i've stayed out of dating and have been in isolation since, don't want anyone to deal with my flashbacks,memory's and baggage.
This is a bit of a summery of the events since i last posted if anyone cares to know.
1.She eventually cut me out of her life and said " she should of just killed herself and said she would leave me alone" when hours prior it was" she didn't know if or when we were going to see each other again and need to deal with it".
2.i've been in therapy since, my counselor thinks she was BPD not PTSD due to the discard and nonsense of it.
3. i've been diagnosed with C-PTSD and i have flashbacks of her when i walk by places we used to frequent and nightmares, I now avoid those places and I had one today when i saw her mom's car Likely picking her up and had these huge intense emotions and memory's.
4. she has not reached out to me since and has pretty much cut me out of her life and never called or saw me in person and never had any closure .
5. i've shut down my social media and blocked her number and basically have become a ghost.
6. i've stayed out of dating and have been in isolation since, don't want anyone to deal with my flashbacks,memory's and baggage.
This is a bit of a summery of the events since i last posted if anyone cares to know.
