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    Addiction secret drinking of alcohol

    Hi. I have cptsd, or developmental trauma, ace score 7. I take medication. I go to the doctor. I never used to drink alcohol. But even now, in the last period, I have been alone and secretly in some pubs, actually twice. I drank some hard liquor (72%). Nothing special is happening in my life...
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    Memory and attention problems

    Thank you for all the answers. It's very helpful. It's really great to have you near at least this way. Did anyone tried meditation ? I'm a little interested in it now. I have read recently that meditation or yoga can be helpful. It requires daily practice for at least a few minutes.
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    Memory and attention problems

    I do not know where to ask so i ask here. I want to ask people who suffer from c-ptsd, or ptsd, or childhood trauma if they have a memory problems, difficulty learning new tasks, attention problems, trouble with concentration and focus (for example in a new job). I mean I'm not retardet and I...
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    What is hypervigilance like for you?

    I have complex ptsd or whatever it is. Just some severe trauma. So basically what I've been through was like war between walls with my alcoholic father. Sometimes it reminded hostage situation. Anyway, whenever it could turn into a murder. Btw very surreal. Life can be very strange. You can hear...
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    Cutting off bad relationships leading to having few friends/feeling disconnected

    Not everyone is bad. It is true. But as you surely know it's not only about other people. If you want to be with people instead of being loner you have to change your thinking patterns. Emotions of traumatized people became too large, extreme. Traumatized people keep getting stuck with e.g. what...
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    Work...

    At mornings I had a very funny day at work, I can tell you :dead: :D So I don't slept very well tonight because of anxiety, depression, and other things (complex ptsd, childhood trauma symptoms, things like that). Suddenly I got an idea in the morning, before work. I dont drink coffee at all. I...
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    Sexual Assault Could have somehow affected my sexuality ?

    I think maybe one of the symptoms is that during the last few years I have a period during which I do not care for sex at all. As if intimacy were disgusting. Or when someone offers you food and you are not hungry at all. Or I don't know. Something like that. Do you know that?
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    Sexual Assault Could have somehow affected my sexuality ?

    Yes. I am confuse. As I wrote, I almost never talked about it with anyone. With only two people during my life but only a little. And they were like they don't want to hear about it. I basically did not discuss it with anyone so I am wondering if this could have some impact on me. I mean among...
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    Sexual Assault Could have somehow affected my sexuality ?

    ok. whatever. if administrator or soembody can delete this thread It would be fine. thanks
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    Sexual Assault Could have somehow affected my sexuality ?

    I'm really sorry but I don't know where to put this thread. But what I want to ask you It's related to sexuality. But let me be clear from beginning. I was not sexually abused. But still... I have complex ptsd, and also ACOA symptoms (domestic violence during childhood, alcoholic father, and so...
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    Is this dissociation?

    I am sorry but I don't want to create a new thread about dissotiation because you can find them a lot here. I have also question. I can't answer in this thread because I actually still don't know what exactly dissotiation is. I'm not sure what the hell I have. Maladaptive daydreaming ? Escapism...
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    Purposefully trigger yourself?

    I do something like this but for another reason. For me it's like escape. I have complex ptsd. People like me lived in domestic violence, it has become normal for us. This is the world in which I learned to live and exist. So the outside world is strange to me. I have to learn. Is slow process...
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    Has anyone ever had faith/religion as a part of your healing process?

    I did not want to question someone's faith. If faith in God helps somebody it's ok. And trust me, I do not want to take anyone anything what helps him/her. We are on the same boat here and we all know how important is to have something that helps us (If it does not hurt us e.g. drugs, alcohol)...
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    Has anyone ever had faith/religion as a part of your healing process?

    No I don't. I am not believer. If anything I like buddhism, but buddhism is more like philosophy and life-style. But funny thing is that some therapeutic methods are similar to meditation, also some breathing techniques. And I also like philosophy in general. What helps me ? Yes, walking or...
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    Childhood For Those Who Experienced Neglect And Abuse Growing Up: How Hard Was The Transition To Adulthood?

    I am 35 but I still feel lost. I started to change something in my life but I am not sure if that is enough. I still don't know what to do in my life. I am confuse. I'm mostly lonely. I feel everywhere like a stranger, with my relatives, at work, on the street, with neighbors, even in here. I...
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