Work...

[Sam jam]

Im having a hard time right now. I work as a bartender (bad choice but i make a killing) and there is a some bull shit happening that i HAVE to go to my owner and manager about (really at this point i have no choice). This is all happening tomorrow. It sounds so strange and i have not been on here in a while but i feel like i cannot breathe and there is a ball of tension in my chest and i have been shaking since last night. I do not really have anyone to talk to so... im not sure what i expect.

 

[The Albatross]

Well straight up, you need to manage your stress/anxiety/worry to get some levity and a better bearing on the situation. So far as not having a choice about the choice tomorrow... call it a deadline instead. Clarify for yourself first... "IF you felt you HAD a choice... what would it be and why?" Then how does that fit with my personal/character/values??? Why or Why not?

That can help immensely. Then write it out off line - cathartically, just throw up on paper. Take a break. Read it again and whittle it down to the base/core issue and problem.

Eat a good meal, take good care of yourself... resolve to review your work before a meeting and try to go in and deal as best as you can being mindful of the core issue you need to address.

Best of luck to you ... hope you handle it well and endeavor to do a bit at the front end to assist you and your employer during and after the meeting. It could happen... k?

 

[acoa82]

At mornings I had a very funny day at work, I can tell you :dead: :D So I don't slept very well tonight because of anxiety, depression, and other things (complex ptsd, childhood trauma symptoms, things like that). Suddenly I got an idea in the morning, before work. I dont drink coffee at all. I know that coffee can worsen anxiety, but I thought I can handle it. Only two teaspoons, why not. I mixed it with milk, chocolate, cinnamon. Great recipe, isn't it ? Well I could't be more foolish. My anxiety has increased rapidly, I was agitated, I was shaking, I didn't know if I was going to vomit, I was dizzy. Veeery funny. I do not recommend :wtf:
But the most interesting thing was that I enjoyed it a little bit. Some people have asked me in the past if I have masochistic inclinations. Well maybe this way ;-)