Recent content by Always have Hope!

I feel Anthony you are correct in what your saying. So since I seen during our time together her making rashly decisions on a turn of a dime,. For example: watch her read a post on facebook and telling me it was plot that her friends are trying to mess with her, trying to hurt her. She delete...

I agree on some of your commits and I'm reviewing in your opinion perspective. But we did have a loving relationship. Maybe I am going by just what she said, thats all I have to go by. But common sense still shows the fact where was he, if he loved her so much when she had the brain surgery and...

Maybe your right, but my interest is my heart, but I'm still concern in what she said. Its not easy to just let go, we was in a relationship over a year. I wasn't sneaking I went to her apartment, I wouldn't have cared if he was there or not, he buded in my bussiness and I went there to talk to...

We both do, but she has had less time to work on hers, and she goes though up and down mood swings, and when its bad she isolate herself. Ive had 20 years to work on mine and have came to terms with most of it.

So after 10 days, I broke down and went to see my ex girlfriend, at first she was hesitate to talk, then she said ok we talk in my car. After we got in, I first told her I tried very hard to stay away, but I love you and I care, and I worry about her ( she has ptsd, depression, and anxiety...

I don't know what to feel anymore, its all numb now. I speck so highly of havin hope, but she has to have hope too. I know I have said everything in my heart, I dont know if it resister to her, she has a comeback that changes the perspective of the actual relationship. She sabotages the past...

I really don't want to show that beta male characteristics, I let myself become to passive, weak, clingy and needy. I wouldnt blame her to push that away, I wasn't like that when I meet, I was stronger, charismatic, more of a alpha male. I need to stand my ground, be firm, I will learn from...

Thank you for kind response

The last 5 or 6 weeks has been a living nightmare, all my feelings and emotions has heighten to levels I have never experienced. My panic disorder, depression, and agoraphobia has risen to a much higher hyperactivity. I had sought out and establish a ptsd therapist by my family doctor. They...

Its been a hard exhaustive month. So much thoughts swirling all the time. I never expected how difficult a sudden break up can be. Even after they explain why, it still seems unrealistic. I have to fight this for I can be there in my raising of my children. Its hard to digest that all of the...

Are you saying thats the reason I went there, that I wanted to be assulted, what did I expect? Like I said yea ill attend your party and you can gang rape me for coke. Thats how you making me feel

There are situations in ones life at times that causes them to rethink their past decisions base on their historic tragic events. As for myself, I felt that on my current life events, I would benefit more by sharing, and stop hiding from my past. I will try to do so as shortly as possible...

Ever since my earlier break up with my girlfriend I have extremely took it upon myself in a panic stricken state to annualize the current status and fix it. Not only did I respond typically to an average break up in the norm of today's relational social regularity, I thoughtlessly didn't add...

I think I hit bottom last night, I haven't drank alcohol in over 18 years, I broke my sobriety, I bought 6 pack on a whim, I was hurting so bad. That lead to more, bad thing I was buzzed all to hell on just the first one, but I wanted to numb it away. My kids never seen me drank, or drunk...

Thanks tony, I thank you for your post. It was a two sided sword, I was happy just to be around her, see her smile and that she is doing well. Even with her deaf ears and my bleeding my heart to her, I cant stop just loving her, its not a on and off switch. I cant stop her for moving on, I want...