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I have no real advice because I'm in the same boat. A lot of mine comes from thinking my trauma is like, lesser than others? like sure I was r*ped but not like other people where yanno, it wasnt like in an alley at gun point or something so my brain like, discredits it. I can't even state my...

Yeah I suppose fawning is a much better word, thank you! My vocabulary skills go out the window when I'm emotionally all over the place. I feel you on the please don't hate me part though. I know without a doubt mine does but I still constantly hope he doesn't... even though at this point I am...

I've only had about a year and a month out of the relationship with my ex, but your story is beyond scarily relatable for me. My ex admitted to lightly stalking me (which is how we met-he gave me my favorite candy without me every telling him what it was), and by the time he said that he had...

For some background-I dated a guy a few years ago, I was a lesbian who didn't know I was a lesbian, and thus never felt the same about him as he did me. Because he was terrible piece of human garbage, his response to me not wanting to have sex with him was to sexually assault me. I was never...

Lady Gaga. That might seem tacky, but its true. I've very quickly started to look up to her-she faces a lot of the problems I do, and she faces them in a very human way, but she's also confident. I've learned more about being me for who I am (and loving myself despite ups and downs of it) from...

I like some rap music, but I wouldn't say its top five for me. My favorite genres are more or less-alternative, rock, indie, pop, edm/etc (a lot of edm songs I like range from more experimental stuff, to indie, to remixed hip hop). My entire list of artists I like is a long one, but it included...

because I've had physical abuse in the past, I flinched away and almost yelped, and that seemed to snap him out of his "rage" or whatever. He then just dropped it and walked away to play video games. @ everyone else - thank you for your help and reassurance. The way he said it made me feel like...

Rock is actually my second favorite genre (my favorite is alternative)! A lot of my friends like ptv, even though I never personally got into it.

I'm confused about your first two points? It could be brain fog but I initially said no, and then went along and said yes after he pushed the issue - are you saying that me saying yes is what mattered? I'm glad someone who's an outside party can say those last three things about him-I was...

As a child I cried over literally everything- my parents got sick of it, and told me to stop crying because it "doesn't solve anything"-I've held that with me since. I only cry when I'm laughing, or if I'm alone and feeling particularly bad. And to some degree I still believe that...

I recently confronted my rapist, who called me "f*cking crazy" - his argument was that whenever I said no, I eventually changed my mind, and that if I didn't tell him to stop, that he did not, in fact rape me. Is he right? In the beginning of the relationship (we dated), he'd often ask to make...

My moms chihuahua is the definition of an ankle biting little dog-not mine though. He's stubborn, but he's never expressed any of the typical "small dog aggression" traits-since he comes with me to the store and such, I've had little kids come over and mess with him, and he tolerates it like a...

*raises hand* I was diagnosed with GAD when I was 14! I don't have it as bad as some, but I have problems with various "everyday" things-going down stairs, escalators, brushing against someone in public, eating in public, any loud sudden noise, people walking behind me, babies, etc etc Generally...

I second the Til It Happens To You by Lady Gaga suggestion; "You tell me hold your head up, hold your head up and be strong 'Cause when you fall you gotta get up, you gotta get up and move on Tell me how the hell could you talk, how could you talk? 'Cause until you walk where I walk, this is no...

My first, and only job, is one I walked out on. It was shortly after I started the job that my (ex) boyfriend first attempted to rape me, so I was under a lot of stress. They kept expecting more hours from me, my coworkers were jerks, people would hit on me/touch me and they refused to pay me...