Recent content by Bloomy

I did break my soul and I was in grieve over the loss when I wrote this. I still do. Do I slowly learn to accept the way it is. But thank you so much <3

eve I wonder about this quote I’m just so scared. This fck up was so big. I lost one supporter. What happend if I may ask? Reason why I ask is cause it seems something I relate to. When it comes to messy house bills and no energy or zest for nothing. Im sure you heard about how to eat an...

System does not exist without people so its society and people that works within it

Ive been on rehab money from the goverment. I was healing. I was doing good. But. As of 2018, the Norwegian government has changed the rules for rehabilitation and many in Noway are now totally without income due to a very skewed social policy. We cannot even complain about this treatment, but...

I'm furious. First, you must survive the hell of trauma and hell all they did to you break your soul and spirit and humanity. Then find out that the society you live in will retraum you every time you manage to get your head above water to breathe. When you think you are healing and on your way...

Ive managed to take more action with time cause I realise that If I dont Ill have a even more huge panic attack. I can wake up shit scared 4 o clock in the morning. Then the only thing to do is to put on meditation tape until I can relax again. But the pure knowledge that if I dont take action...

I agree with changing4best. Even without therapy it gets better with time. Was with friend yesterday and we had a tough conversation. Felt natural that my friend took my hand to console me. Still a bit awkward to be held, but I lean into it and its a good feeling. I would never had belive the...

Not sure what to post this under so correct me if Ive posted under wrong category.... Yeah so I think I just broke my soul today. Reached a new level of being total bunkers mad crazy bitch did I too. Been fighting so hard to make a difference to my self. So I guess I vunerable. Also cause I...

Yeah would you :geek::D:chicken: Im better today :happy: Working on the process of letting go of letting silly people ruin my wellbeing or lettting people who is silly go. Try to stay focused and do my evening - let - it go - yoga :smug:

@DharmaGirl cause of ptsd eating disorder I cant always manage to eat other peoples food. I know it leaves me out, but I come to accept that this eating disorder is something that will be part of the rest of my life too. If Im safe with people I can tell them about it and I can even eat their...

@Beemo3780 yes thats what I need to do, but yes easier said then done. It hurts really bad. Included in this is that they also bought food they want me to pay partly for even if I didnt touch it and wasnt part of it as I bought my own food. Yes but even if it wont roll out on me atleast I...

@Nessa7 not at the cabin no. Its just a ptsd feeling that Im a bad and poisoned person that is not ok. I dont really behave that bad if I let the sane voice inside me.

@Beemo3780 its not that they thought they couldnt post pic of me. They know they can as we discussed this before. Its that they didnt take any picture of me. You know. when you go somewhere with your group and you are having a great time and as to show that you hurdle up togeter in the sofa...

First - many thanks @shimmerz for nice input. Its not only the photos no. The photos came as a confirmation to the social exclusion I allready felt before this. Meaning It doesnt feel like they include me, in conversations Im often overheard saying something, I also understand they had their...

I asked why I wasnt in photos and where told I could take the photos mylsef if I wanted too @Xena