Please talk to me (again)

[Lucycat]

I am sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time. I hope it eases with each day, and I do hope that you get to see your sister. Surely she can visit you?

 

[Bloomy]

eve I wonder about this quote
I’m just so scared.

This fck up was so big. I lost one supporter.

What happend if I may ask? Reason why I ask is cause it seems something I relate to.

When it comes to messy house bills and no energy or zest for nothing. Im sure you heard about how to eat an elephant?
Ive been like this to - to frozen and in despair to make sense of my self. I still dont make sense of my self. Actually Its worser then ever.
The better part is that Il learned to like a orderly and clean house and I do pay bills as long as I can now by eating the elephant bit by bit.
Start with picking up sock by sock. In my case it took a year of regular change of habit of having a house that made me feel even worser about it all. And still I need to remind myself. Self care. Today after a week in hell it certainly looked like it too. Almost done now and feels atleast 2 millimeters better and sometimes it might be just those 2 millimeters you need to overcome.

Bills... Well.. It got worse and worse. So one day I just say to myself - you will now just do this - pay that bill. Cry if you want to wrench down in panick, but pay. And after you can have your breakdown. Been over a year to and it works fairly fine now without breakdowns. Its a long way to go since I put my self in a lot of shit due to ptsd self sabotage not beliving I deserved better or could do any better

Wish you all the best and sending my warmest support

 

[HealingInProcess]

I hope things are better now. I prayed for you.

 

[EveHarrington]

I hope things are better now. I prayed for you.

Thank you. I’m doing better now. :-)