Here again moving talk

[Dynamic]

Ello I am waiting for my mood stabilizer to kick in before I truly spiral maybe my last spiral sounds dramatic but I really don’t know how much more I have left in that place in me. I saw a video of functional neurological disorder in someone in worse condition than me and I did feel appreciative for me and sad for her but I also wondered if that’s my future

A pastor once said after everything God brought him thru he learned humans are much stronger than we think or have been conditioned to live.

I need to stay strong for my kids and this also makes me cry bc they’ve seen me nearly die from too many seizures for one example

I don’t feel strong
In fact
I’m currently also being messed with. My ex husband is rogue. So I have no support from him with this move also being attacked as a mother yet again yet the number one thing compliment me on is that my mothering or nurturing / or my kids behavior and accomplishments

I cannot work full time anymore ever seems like I keep trying and I just have to accept I’m not there yet

Okay so for moving I wanna go home and do my hair then start going thru my belongings and what I like to do is make three piles

Donate, throw out garbage, and give to a friend /family member

I’m sort of a minimalist and feel like I’m full of stuff at home so this will be fun if I can focus which has been the problem.

Hardly able to do much literally walking in circles. On the plus my realtor reviewed everything and said we may be able to write a simple contract to keep the house. I can’t risk not being ready to move tho. Sounds stressful and annoying.

Oh also issues with keeping all my pets.
So so so so stressed.sad sad sad

M said he can be here soon to help and wishes he could be here now.

 

[Dynamic]

Just realized I have to start in the shed because it’s full and there’s things I need to store in there that are in the way inside

 

[Susan Jane]

Hardly able to do much literally walking in circles.

I so understand…I just try and tell myself I am moving, which is something

 

[Dynamic]

ugh Idk just need to write, I am going thru everything in my room. My daughters friends church is doing a clothing drive thing for the community
so anyway

I have a bag of hangers, and a bag of clothes to donate so far.
and a half bag of actual garbage stuff.

 

[Dynamic]

I got another bag together for the church event . This weekend we’ll be going to the church and I think jgf and possibly his gf will join

It’s the house of God I cannot care if she comes in fact I should be happy somehow

 

[arfie]

i'm a hardcore minimalist. less is better in my estimation. however, i live with 3 kids and a packrat. my minimals are their storage opportunities. my favorite thing about moving is it forces closet cleanouts. the closets in the new place fill all too quickly, but enjoying the small moments seems to be the secret to happiness.

i've been in this house 6 years now. sure is cluttered. maybe time to move?
nah. . . not this week.

steadying support while you reach for your fresh start.

 

[Dynamic]

I did a good thing and the lady said she’s very proud of me. It made me cry.

I’m not letting my kids be manipulated away from me!

 

[Dynamic]

ugh it helps to write in dif spots right now

this move is somewhat exciting. idk where Im going yet which is the worst part

next: pack up bathroom stuff I dont really need out all the time lke

hair tools
I can keep one or something and pack the rest

sigh