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    Dom Violence ongoing guilt and feeling that i exhagerate my problems

    i think it is due time i update this thread. i got myself a job, not the best but i guess it's good enough for now. Yet, i think i should've not been hired. almost as if i deprived someone more deserving of it. moreover this guilt is still on me. the last few months have been a rollercoaster...
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    Coffee

    I adore coffee and kaso tea ! I usually buy whole beans either in the supermarket or in the local bar. Here In Italy it's very common for even small village bars to have their own coffee beans mixtures to sell. As for my tar I have found a local specialty shop with lots of good choices. Usually...
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    Do I even deserve to go on ?

    Sometimes I'd rather read and do nothing but let me rephrase . Giving structure to my life is something that I obsessively think about. Rather than having unplanned events happening I'd rather narrow down the things I do just to have a structure for the day.
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    Do I even deserve to go on ?

    Giving structure to my week or even months is something I find myself doing everytime. I'd rather do nothing but read than not to have a planned week. Is this kind of behaviour common with PTSD ?
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    Do I even deserve to go on ?

    It might not be but can't help thinking I'm to blame for thinking to get away from my family with whom I still live for now. I have an industrial chemistry diploma a'd I wish to workssomewhere where I can do chemistry doesn't matter the branch. I'm gonna pay for my uni studies while working...
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    Do I even deserve to go on ?

    Freedom from my past, that's what It means to me for now. I want a way out of my family, of where I lived. I'm selfish for saying so but I want to be on my own whether it is in a house or six feets under. In 1-5 years, I hope to be working somewhere and having a stable financial situation out of...
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    Do I even deserve to go on ?

    I've ended up believing that I might not even deserve a life out of my familiar contest. Growing up I always felt shamed, always got shouted at for little things to the point I feel as if I'm just an automaton incapable of thinking and acting for himself. Acting for myself would just cause me...
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    The espresso today is a bit better
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    Dom Violence ongoing guilt and feeling that i exhagerate my problems

    For now my support group consists of my therapist grandparents ( tho tho they're old and can't grasp the idea of PTSD very well but they have been my only "safe space" for years and still are ) three friends, one of which also has PTSD so that's a real help with discussing this whole ordeal. As...
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    Dom Violence ongoing guilt and feeling that i exhagerate my problems

    Hi, thanks for welcoming me ! I am slowly growing fond of this thread as it's making me more aware of what PTSD actually entails. This last week was a turmoil due to the diagnosis. I've been 22 to for a month now, don't mind sharing my age here 乁| ・ 〰 ・ |ㄏ Edit: indeed there's a stigma in...
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    Dom Violence ongoing guilt and feeling that i exhagerate my problems

    as the title says, i costantly feel guilt over what happened. on top of that i'm always told that i do this for attention, get dismissed as someone uncapable of living on his own and that always had to be taken care of. Growing up, i was subjected to costant punishments and "correctional"...
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    Unwaining fog

    since the diagnosis arrived i have yet to see my general pratictioner. it has been only a week or so that my ptsd diagnosis was made official. I would have never guessed that ptsd can cause probllems with the thyroid, thanks for the heads up! thanks you very much for the advice! i've done some...
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    Unwaining fog

    Oh, sorry for posting in a wrong forum and thanks for the heads up! Finally I can try to categorize and explain the things that have been happening to me and this forum has been a real help so far. I should be starting a cognitive reinforcement and re training company soon with my therapist...
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    Unwaining fog

    Hi everyone, how are you all doing ? So... Brain fogging or whatever it's called now, I feel constantly surrounded by it. I doze off while eating and start hearing everything feebly, get triggered by even the slightest bit of criticism, but still can't properly articulate. Speaking with my...
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    Suicide, work or lach thereof, the taste of my espresso too ( it ain't good)
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