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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    @piratelady this time last year I took a three week vacation/digital detox and didn't respond to email or phone calls and left the state so that I wasn't accessible or tempted to just drop by work. That isn't an option this year as my job heavily intersects with the US election and there is no...
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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    I am really struggling today. I had a last minute session with T yesterday that really didn't help much. I don't know if this is just temporary burnout due to stress from my job or the beginning of another major downward spiral similar to what I had in 2017 that led to three hospitalizations...
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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    @piratelady i have started trying to exercise more but my fear is that I won’t regulate that either and as history shows push to far and injury myself @Mach123 i had been doing really well for over a year, controlling my unhealthy coping mechanisms making progress we even believe we had...
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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    @piratelady I am trying to stick to positive distractions have been working 12-14 hour days to stay away from home but as last night shows I still fail sometimes.
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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    I reached out to my T this morning asking if we could schedule another session (I have a work commitment that caused me to cancel next week's session but he is booked. He will check with me if he gets a cancelation. The worst thing is even with the slow down agreement I indulged in trauma...
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    Fell way off the wagon last couple of weeks.

    Just over a week ago things were going well. Then I had my weekly session with my T and we were talking about feeling as though we had processed through my primary trauma and it would be good to begin processing one of my next two significant traumas which we had thought would not be as...
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    Holiday guilt trips

    I am still struggling with any thought of the holiday season this year. COVID doesn't help, my father will be turning 82 three days before Christmas but has been part of the US deniers groups saying that the disease is not that bad, that it is just one group attempting to use scare tactics to...
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    Holiday guilt trips

    The family guilt trips about all coming together started earlier this year than usual with a group to text to all the siblings from my brother announcing a command performance of family love and unity for Christmas. My therapist has already asked me to really think about how healthy it will be...
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    So F**king frustrating! - Why is it so hard to understand that you don't mess with what works just because you are new?

    So after typing up several less than nice email messages to the PA and to the practice I decided that sending something when I was so upset was counter productive. Instead, I took stock of my situation. I have been unable to find an alternative P-doc provider over the past 6 months that was...
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    Is this routine? Do psychiatrists always insist on bringing in and talking to another family member during sessions with you?

    @Still Standing I have been under the care of two psychiatrists in outpatient settings, two different psychiatrists in inpatient settings and have just been assigned a new PA in outpatient and have never once had anyone else brought in to my sessions nor insist on speaking to any member of my...
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    So F**king frustrating! - Why is it so hard to understand that you don't mess with what works just because you are new?

    So back in March my P-doc informed me that that would be our last session as he was leaving the organization at the end of the month. I don't blame him for leaving as all I have heard from the large practice he was part of was that they were struggling to re-assign his nine hundred yes 900...
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    Public Commitment to Exercise

    By 11:59:59 pm on Sunday September 14th I will have exercised 4 out of 7 days for at least 30 mins each occurrence.
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    Meanwhile, back in college

    @RussellSue I wouldn't worry about getting a negative reference from the previous position. I work in HR and there are actually laws regarding what a past employer can say about an employee. Specific answers to questions asked. As an employee go ahead and put the position on your resume. If...
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    Struggling with desire to return to former T

    @blackemerald1 If I never saw my former T again I could live with it, but for now I don't have too. We are doing a short 30 min telehealth session this weekend and though I am confident that I will return to my former location for work and living after some good discussions with my current T I...
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    Going back to school, sort of...

    I haven't taken any classes in 15 years since I finished my master's program but I have reached a point that I want to stop being a generalist in my field and focus on one area. So I have taken the plunge and registered for a certification prep class that will run all fall and will prepare me...
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