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My PTSD comes from childhood abuse, violence and neglect, sexual assault and a violent relationship. I was diagnosed in 2014. I met a wonderful man who tries his hardest to be supportive. He knows about my diagnosis and history of abuse. I managed to tell him without getting into much detail...

I met someone who started expressing very sadistic sexual words to me. They were so intense that it sounded like they were rehearsing lines straight out of a horror movie. I don't even want to say what he said. Last night I had a dream about being raped. It was so scary (I won't get into the...

Does anyone else find that when they've had an abusive relationship and / or upbringing that getting into a relationship with a non abusive partner is depressing? Sometimes I dont know why I get depressed about it, maybe its that I dont feel worthy or I feel overwhelmed or I just dont know how...

Welcome to the forum! You are definately not alone with your childhood traumatic and neglectful experiences. Many here can relate to your experiences. May you find this forum supportive and helpful on your journey to recovery and healing.

I'm sorry to hear what you have been through. I would like to agree with the majority of replies to this thread that confronting an abuser might not be the beat idea. However, that is your decision to make. Perhaps my story of confronting my abusive father would help you with your situation...

Anyway, I have decided I'm not letting anyone take advantage of me again. It seems like the more I give, the more I get taken advantage of. I'm so annoyed because people take advantage of the fact that I actually care about them. They think they can treat me like a doormat and I will just put up...

Thank you for all of your responses. Its great to hear your experiences and coping mechanisms. It helps a lot.

Thank you for your story. Its good to know I'm not alone. Its amazing how we can ultimately think the worst about a situation and create scenarios in our own mind when in reality its nothing like we imagined. I'm so glad that things worked out for you in the end.

Thank you for that. It is worth reading a book about that. It is definately hard to go no contact and you should be proud of yourself that you actually took that step. Well done.

Sorry, this was also a reply to @Rain @EveHarrington perhaps one of my siblings gave my number to him. I'm not sure if I can trust them with my number again. So I will be careful who I give it to next time.

Thanks for your kind words. I'm working on these trust issues. My parents are divorced and they dont talk at all. Perhaps one of my siblings gave him my number. I'm happy to hear that you are recovering and healing and no longer feel as fearful anymore. It's very encouraging to hear this. It...

I'm so frustrated with myself! Why can't I trust anyone? Why am I so messed up? I get paranoid all the time, I space out, I feel numb. My trust issues are ruining my life and my relationship! I managed to speak to my dad and he just abused me again! I even changed my number but somehow he got...

I forgot to include that you are a wonderful, kind, compassionate person Eve. You deserve to be happy. It sounds like you have come so far on your journey to healing and you've made a lot of progress. You should be so proud of yourself! This thread actually shows your progress in your recovery...

You deserve people in your life that treat you with respect and dignity. You dont deserve to be abused or taken advantage of. Cutting ties / going no contact with an anyone especially an abusive family member is extremely hard and it sounds like you've taken the first step. I try to remember...

I am sorry to hear what you have gone through and you are currently experiencing. I totally understand. You're not alone. I have been told to set boundaries with my father as well. I even tried to set boundaries but he never respected them. Abusive people dont respect boundaries and have no...