Recent content by gms1976

Hello, I'm hoping some of you lovely folks can help as I'm looking for a psychologist who does online therapy and specializes in trauma. I recently stepped away from my current therapist who is a LCSW. No disrespect intended toward LCSW's but there does appear to be a significant difference...

I just feel utterly worthless, broken and unfixable. I feel stuck. I've tried so many things over the years, but the PTSD just seems to take over. I don't mean to be a downer, but I'm struggling badly. The world is a very dark place right now. I have treatment resistant depression and I've...

Oh what I would give for a little inner peace. Never had it - what I have is an inner maelstrom; a non-stop tornado of thoughts, worries, feelings and sensations that leave the landscape of my mind perpetually in a state of destruction and despair. Add in a mixture of toxic shame, depression...

There is a site I often frequent called Archive of Our Own. It is a combo Fan Fiction and Original fiction site with over 10+ million works on it and all totally free to read. I will often find solace in reading original works - some of which I am convinced could be published professionally -...

Just wanted to thank you for posting this. I had not heard about Inositol and I'm ordering a bottle right now. I am dealing with overwhelming stress in my life and the anxiety and panic have been off the scale. I'm falling apart - emotionally and physically. I'm not at all suicidal, but my...

I'm so sorry you went through this as I know it's going to take a lot to gain your trust. She clearly wasn't actively listening to you or was distracted which is annoying in itself because that means she either wasn't interested in being there or wasn't invested in helping her patients. When...

Laurie, your words are very thought-provoking. I've thought about Buddhism several times over the past year but I know little about it or where to start. Any suggestions? Another challenge I've experienced is that I often do not recognize I'm in such anxious state until much later. Anxiety is...

I'm an extremely anxious, high-strung and hyper-analytical individual. I find myself constantly on the look out for rejection, criticism, displeasure, someone being "mad" at me, the fear I've done something wrong without knowing and so on. I hate being like this and wish I had a different brain...

Oh Gizmo, What a horrible thing for that elder to say! I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm a RN and it blows my mind that in the 21st century, people are actually saying this stuff. That is a frightening frame of mind. Will all due respect to the churches that are out there who are...

Gizmo - love that you started this thread. I was a really devout Christian for about 15 years. I became a christian after dealing with some spiritual weirdness. I was scared of the shadows and the darkness that seemed to follow me wherever I went and everyone told me Jesus would protect me. At...

I struggle with toxic shame every day. I wish it was as simple as going to a therapist, but I've been going to an excellent therapist for over 2 years. I feel shame that I even exist. I work at a local hospital in the Quality Department and am often in the company of physicians. I feel like scum...

Expat you have some wonderful sensitivities. I'm new to this - a complete novice - and I don't have a clue how to work it all out yet, but you seem to be really emotionally intuitive which is really great for a guy. So many men I know, including my own family, are almost emotionless in their...

Hashi, I unfortunately don't know anything about psychic protection but if it can help. I'm very interested in finding out. I'll definitely look into Caroline's books. I just feel so overloaded. With PTSD I hate getting up in the mornings because I dread what the day has in store for me but I'm...

Hi Whitney, No worries, there is no research at all. I'm a complex PTSD sufferer and was struggling with sensory overload. I thought there might be something to it more than just hypervigilance and being sensitive. I was just looking info up for myself and I thought I would share since my...

I'm extremely sensitive to the energy in a room, from the people I work with or am around. I soak it up like a sponge. I've always thought it was PTSD and my hyper-alert brain. My therapist told me that in her experience she's found that patients who've undergone abuse or trauma often become...