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    Sexual Assault Anyone else with this trigger?

    Last week my 5yo let out this guttural scream because she was angry with me for getting rid of her food she didn't want. As soon as she started screaming, I felt intense vaginal pain. I told my T about it last session, brushed it off as "maybe it's nothing". She said it's definitely not...
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    Thank you @Haven ! Yes, your post was helpful as well...and very validating. I have been more than stuck on that night. I've done EMDR in therapy several times for the CSA stuff, but nothing has really come up except for a few emotional flashbacks. I haven't even thought about trying it for...
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    Thank you so much @EveHarrington and @Justmehere for your tactful approach. I was coming back to this thread to apologize to any whom I might have offended and/or triggered when I saw your replies. I didn't have any malicious intent in asking the opinions of strangers. Yes, I could definitely...
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    Abuser Still Unknown

    I am back in therapy for a year now.
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    And @Ragdoll Circus, no I could not direct them to my house from the middle of nowhere. We were no longer in my town, and even if we were, I was only familiar with the L-shaped route that my bus took to and from school. We did not have a car, so we kids did not go anywhere other than to school...
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    Wow. I really must beg everyone's forgiveness for naively adding what details and thoughts I do remember. I'm going to have to consult my book of etiquette before I post anything else on this "support" site.
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    @Ragdoll Circus , what fluff have I added? My "mother" and her husband weren't concerned because they were on drugs, were constantly bringing addicts and dealers into the house. What I've written here is the truth. I don't understand your bit about a narrative. I know that I repress things quite...
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    Um. Wow. Trying to calm myself down right now, stop the heavy throbbing in my arms and chest and throat. Yes, if some sicko were to come on here and fabricate something like this for whatever reason, I agree that that would be beyond horrible. But this is a memory/gap of mine from when I was...
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    Sexual Assault What do you think happened?

    Fifteen years ago, a teenage girl is told by her drug addicted mother one day after school that she must go and babysit for a stranger one night: a woman, a nurse, who has two toddler boys. The young girl is used to taking care of other people's children, so doesn't really mind since it's a...
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    Tre (trauma release exercise) question

    Yes, I'm definitely experiencing the spastic movements. I was starting to think I was somehow doing these movements kind of on purpose.
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    Tre (trauma release exercise) question

    So you did unblock emotionally? May I ask how, if you don't mind? Have you ever experienced images come to your mind while doing TRE or afterward?
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    Tre (trauma release exercise) question

    Question for anyone who is still doing TRE: A member from a different support site mentioned that doing TRE sometimes caused her to react with kicks and punches, self-defense movements. I have found that sometimes after tremoring for a minute or two... ...my body will position itself in such a...
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    Abuser Still Unknown

    Ugh, this is all so crazy. Thank you for sharing. I do understand the self-protection aspect. I think I'm going to go ahead and start therapy again so this brain will feel safer. My insurance is not the best, however, so finding one that knows what they're doing, that will inspire confidence...
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    Trauma Release Exercises

    I know this is an old forum, but was wondering how you would do TRE mindfully. I've been doing them for a week independently and am not currently in therapy.
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    Abuser Still Unknown

    That's a thought. I'll take it into consideration. Thank you.
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