Recent content by honeypie058

I can relate. My husband suffers from bipolar with psychosis and the new virus has set off his paranoia. He created a computer program to track it and is obsessed and has to update it everyday. For me it’s extremely stressful and difficult to watch him go through this level of fear.

Tailgaters who ride on my bumper and have plenty of room to pass me on the left side. Those who have bad manners.

Yes, I saw my rapist face. I tried to avoid the news as much as possible but her testimony appeared as I happened to turn on to listen for a traffic report. Really rotten timing. I was a complete mess and still trying to dig myself out.

It was kind of a mixed experience for me. The act itself was quick, I was caught by surprise. When I realized what was happening and while I was saying stop, it felt like eternity trying to get away. I don't know if that makes sense but when I try to process my rape I automatically go to that...

That's wonderful, congratulations.

Overstimulation for me is rough on any occasion. Add PTSD and it makes me batty. I can't really avoid more than two people talking because of my children but I do manage to get a few minutes between conflicts to jump in the shower or hop in my car and blast the radio. My staple for outside...

I believe they have meaning. My therapist and I have been working on my nightmares. He always tells me that they are symbolic and unresolved issues from the traumas.

Yes, after all these years songs from Marvin Gaye triggers memories and I see the my rapists face. It's a shame because I used to love listening to his music.

No gun. It would be too much of a temptation to use it on myself after waking up from my never ending nightmares. I also have children in the house so obviously that's a big risk. I used to sleep with a screwdriver under my pillow but removed that because I was hurting myself during sleep.

My beautiful daughters, every year since they were born.

So for your loss. He sounds like a wonderful person.

Just said my prayers for you and sending support from a distance.

Hypervigilance for me is like walking eggshells, waiting for a conflict to happen. I can't completely relax even though my environment is ok. Feel claustrophobic when people are behind me and being large crowds. Even hugs from my kids are unbearable when I'm feeling like this. It makes sad that...

The message that you can feel anger and have to learn to control reactions is extremely frustrating for me. I have rage all the time and don't feel safe expressing it for fear of judgement from others. As a result my anger is turned inward. Sometimes I wish I can let loose without filter, it...

I can relate to the exhaustion of trying to keep everything together. Sounds like it's been a tough day. Sending support from a distance.