Recent content by hushhush

I completely understand. One day I can get so much done and the next I don't want to leave bed. I try to just take advantage of the better days when I have them. And keep the not so good days for taking care of myself and turning inwards.

I have a hard time keeping focused when it comes to tasks that feel like work to me. Now don't get me wrong, I'm well-educated in self-help and motivation and all that wonderful stuff. But the PTSD seems to throw most of that advice out of the window. I feel like when I'm triggered my PTSD...

Thanks for everyone's input. I'd love to keep hearing more. What would you say to a supporter before you go into, during, and after isolation? I think I would say that this is something that I feel I need to do to protect myself. That I still care about them. That I don't want them to feel...

What does it look like for you? How does it feel? For me I tend to isolate from friends. I just pull back and talk less. It feels like I can't trust them to treat me well while I'm feeling unsafe so I try to just sit with it on my own. Sometimes I avoid doing things like going to the store. I...

I understand. I had some bad nights this week myself. It feels awful. Ask your counselor what you can do. My therapist suggested instead of distractions (which weren't working) to imagine myself expanding and making more and more room for the feelings. Haven't tried it yet bit I'm hopeful.

I'm sorry you're going through this. How is today?

That question is opening a huge can of worms. So I'll get to keep it simple: I need to ask for money from someone to be able to afford therapy. Mind you they already said they would give it to me. It's the asking after they said they would give it that is too much for me. There's a lot of...

It's the same for me. I wasn't given what I needed in childhood even when I begged for it. The message I got was that being vulnerable is painful and doesn't get me anywhere. Now let me say I'm fine with being vulnerable but when it comes to asking for what I need from someone who triggers me...

Had therapy today. At the end of the session my therapist pointed out that I have trouble asking for what I need. And she's right. When it's from someone who reminds my brain of the trauma it's like I freeze. I can't bring myself to be "under their control" by asking. So I don't ask. Just...

I just need to get this out. It weighs in my heart every day. In September after years of on and off silent treatment by him my boyfriend said he wanted to end our relationship in therapy. This was just as we switched to a new couple's therapist who understood that trauma was involved (the...

This is where I differ from scout86. I tend to lean into wanting people to know more about me, even if it's traumatic and in the moment brings up anxiety. That just makes me feel more desperately this need to be recognized and understood. It's as if my soul wants a witness. I guess what I'm...

I agree about rewiring the brain. And I think, "I can't, yet," is an excellent way to look at things. And still it doesn't change the fact that, "I can't, now." As you said, both of our feelings are our experiences and inherently valid all by themselves. So I'm trying to reason through... what...

So this partially goes along with the thread where I asked about how you explain PTSD to someone. (Thank you to everyone who offered their perspective! It really helps me to hear what everyone had to say even if what you do is stay silent.) I often find myself in situations where I feel "stuck"...

I'm not an expert but generally you want to avoid statements with "you" in them and opt for "I". So instead of "You never listen to anything," she might have said, "I feel like I'm not being heard," or "I'm upset that everything I said wasn't remembered." Again, I'm no expert. But the idea is...

New to the forum (see my introduction) and new to knowing that PTSD is this debilitating thing that has been making life difficult for me. I'm big on discussing things, so I'd like to discuss PTSD with the people in my life. I have a lot of positive, self-help types in my circle and what I've...