Recent content by Jenbrookify

I also have periods where I purposely avoid sleep, and in fact tried very hard to not sleep for quite a long time after my trauma, but my trauma happened in my sleep, so the very act of giving in to my subconscious by going to sleep is very triggering, especially during bad spells. It's...

I grew up in a very non-confrontational environment, both of my parents avoided problems and still do and it's caused me a lot of grief. Even they would address me running away for two days. It's definitely unhealthy for you to have had to get to that point and then not have any resolution, and...

I told my mom that I signed up for this forum. It was my way of hinting that something was wrong, and she immediately realized. My mom was just oblivious. She had no clue that I was suffering, and didn't bother to think more about the break downs I had and my growing insomnia. She probably...

Maybe the reason I don't want to go to therapy is that they might say I'm fine and I'm making everything up. That I'm just obsessed with myself. That I'm just translating my stress from school into this bigger problem. That after she says that my mom will sigh about the money she had to spend to...

In the days after my injury I sat with a swollen face and a ripped mouth. Every time I think about it my head pounds, my teeth hurt, the taste of blood rushes to my mouth. I see myself in the mirror for the first time. Gaping holes. Misplaced teeth. Blood. Everywhere. Purple face. I touch my...

Thanks @Loveneverfails that means a lot. This forum really is helping me, and I am so glad to have a supportive community to go to. I'm glad you're ok with my ranting :) my little brother has since forgotten about the yelling match, as he often does pretend to do, and offered to watch my...

Welcome, and I hope this forum helps you with your coping. I have been getting anger episodes for the past few months as well, and it really scares me to see how angry I get. You're not alone, and if you ever need any help, don't hesitate to ask.

Meet Teddy. He's very huggable and he's always there for me when I need a hug. I also have a 3 blankets and a body pillow in addition to my normal sheets and pillows because one of my triggers is going to bed and the edges of beds, and it helps when I surround myself with soft things so that I'm...

Warning- this is pretty much a rant, sorry. This week has been terrible. I am a junior in high school and while there probably wasn't much more work to do this week than any other week it was just particularly difficult. I am averaging 4 and a half hours of sleep per night and had 2 break...

I've been having mood swings lately. I get really angry, sometimes for no reason, sometimes for trivial things. A few times I have just randomly started sobbing, but I heard that's something that happens with PTSD. I get randomly dejected and sad and tired, and I've started complaining again. I...

Thank you very much. I appreciate the support, this forum is actually really helping. I don't feel so alone anymore, and it is kind of like a letting out of pressure.

I mostly just feel really sick and I can't stand the idea, smell, or sight I food. Last night I was so nauseous I was almost gagging but at the same time I didn't throw up. Laying down and calming myself down can help a little, and if you can, try to drink some tea, specifically ginger, mint...

I'm so sorry you have to deal with that kind of boss :( it's not a very understanding thing to do, ptsd or not, but I can see how she's triggering things you have no control over. If I were you I would ask her to be patient and maybe even let her know you have ptsd. After all, how is she...

@scout86 I do still sleepwalk every once in a while though I should have outgrown it by now. The only evidence I have of that though is waking up in weird places or positions (like being flipped to the other end of the bed), so I can only assume it had something to do with sleepwalking. I try to...

@Samantha_38 I don't know what to do. I can try to talk with my mom again, I won't be able to do it on my own because I don't have a car or money to pay for appointments. I don't think the psych would blow things out of proportion. Maybe just going is blowing things out of proportion. I don't...