Recent content by Jim Me

Thanks for the supportive, helpful thoughts. You know something? If there is such a thing as an emotional stalker, I suspect my former manager is one--micro-management with an intent to do harm.

I meant to say "without or even with treatment."

I definitely know that feeling of it taking too long. I can't blame you for that feeling. Trauma, retraumatization, and complex trauma are really stubborn without treatment. But there's definite progress. I worked on mine for years without knowing I could even call my problem "trauma." I'm sorry...

Totally resonate with that. I take it you've seen the movie "The Mask You Live In." I definitely recommend it to men and women both. Thank you.

Seems you were right about the riding it out thing. :) I'm starting to feel better. Whew! Thank you.

It really bothers me that I suddenly start to feel shame out of nowhere and without notice, and that I don't even realize what it is at first. I didn't do anything wrong, and suddenly I have to spend hours feeling like I did?!!! I don't know if there's even a specific type of trigger but I...

I definitely know that cycle. Painfully slow progress is probably better than letting the cycle hit us from behind for the rest of our lives.

Thank you very much for saying that. It really does help. I definitely was flashing back emotionally, and if I say my feelings in words instead of just trying to act like I'm above it, I get a chance to see my PTSD in action. You telling me it was probably the PTSD talking is so validating...

Great idea. I actually helped clean, took my run, cried on my wife's shoulder, and feel pretty well. I have those emotional flashbacks and it's why I'm in therapy, and doing other thing's to heal this. There was a time when I would have gone and criticized my wife or created an argument to...

Yes. I just somehow managed to have all my failure buttons pushed today. In tears, and suddenly don't know what to do about it. I was supposed to finish a job application today, and then my family and I went to a rescheduled counseling meeting, I helped my daughter with Excel, but then had a...

I hope you keep that drive to be unapologetically you forever, even if it might be too hard sometimes. It's not your fault other people judge you. That comes out of their issues, I bet. Whenever you can, crank that honkey tink shit up! (Even if it's just loud enough for you to hear.)

Well, I'm trying to use every tool I can find. There are others who have gone before us who couldn't go deeper in relationships, but now can. If they can do it, we can. (I'm progressing slowly and gradually.) Just you saying you know how it feels helps me feel less alone. Thanks.:tup:

Do you have someone, like a counselor? Seriously, even a could self-help book, will give real guidance and hope. I'm reading Complex PTSD: From Surviving To Thriving, and it's really helping me. Also, I search for CPTSD on YouTube for some support. Or, maybe better some kick-butt positive power...

I've been there big-time, abused at work, even the rush and obligation of work is a trigger for me and, I have learned, for others. @whiteraven I'm very sorry that I don't know what you can afford financially to do, or what resources you have for locating a better job. I can only say that we...

Thank you @JadesJewel. HNY