Thank you very much for saying that. It really does help.You are not bad or a failure. I think all these "I'm bad" thoughts (I have them, too) are the PTSD talking....
I definitely was flashing back emotionally, and if I say my feelings in words instead of just trying to act like I'm above it, I get a chance to see my PTSD in action. You telling me it was probably the PTSD talking is so validating.
It's great to tell myself I'm dealing with a very disruptive condition, but it makes a world of difference hearing it said by someone else. A world of thanks to you.