Recent content by KA60

I got bacterial meningitis of my brain in may 2014 from chronic sinusitis. Craniotomy done to remove abcess left temporal lobe..In a medically induced coma on a vent septic multi organ failure. Dialysis. Cardiopulomary aresst. I resonate with your post. I was hospitalized 30 days. Many...

I just got insight into my part of this. My husbands fsther was verbally physically abusive to him. Me screaming crying asking to stop this focus on current events- I am echoing his father's treatment of him. He said his first wife- long divorced now- sounded like me. That does not exclude his...

He screamed and cried this evening too. I have caused him pain as well. I made a list last night of all the good things he has done for me for us. My thinking gets black and white with this. The list has about u things on it. His beliefs have gotten to me . I just looked at the resources in my...

Thank you Mutty. I have looked in the past at these resources. I need to check again to see if they have changed due to funding cuts. This evening I asked my husband if I can say I am getting overwhelmed aka fear if we are discussing something. And can we table this discussion till later. I...

Thank you moving forward. This post from you is helping me clarify. We had a talk again today. Not good again. We addressed some of8 the questions you raised..For one thing I told him the pain and fear from all that is happening is greatly effecting me. For another I think there has been a...

Ok. Thank you. I have a hard decision to make. I don't expect or want him to change. Maybe Magical thinking but I have friends finally here a church to attend. I am not sure it is safe to leave. I have activities friends here outside of my marriage. Rent is very high - place on my own..He has...

The vietnam sniper veteran when we talk tells me the things he went through but how he survived that he still has his hair etc. He does not speak like my husbsnd at least not when we talk. It is different. I know he is just processing his trauma.

Definitely I can't change him. I feel safe with my dogs. I did not feed into his chaos today. I definitely have been part of the problem arguing crying yelling at him.

Thank you. I need to hear see this. I have been looking for my own place. My heart breaker? Our dogs. 2 pitbulls. My legal ESAs. They should be collateral damage to this. I may sound stupid. These dogs keep me here. Plus him. He really is a good man. He has done goid things for me. We own a nice...

Update about my husband and me. He had a brain injury at age 8. Was paralyzed for awhile. Trauma from fsther growing up. He is a veteran. I have been staring at the reality for awhile..he said he had a vision with this injury at age 8. Saw everything that is happening now then. Aka second civil...

Well another big blow up husband and me. I will need to blend politics and psychology here..My husband really is a doomsdsy believer. 6 years of trying to reason with him aka harm to me and others trauma etc. He just fights. I wish it was just me but I am the one his life that has been most...

Thank you for your post. It is meaningfull..it helps..

I am coming to grips with this- I have been researching. His views and his willingness to fight - with me or anyone probably falls under some type of radicalization..For almost 5 years I heard him argue with his brother about politics. They are no contact again..i really confronted him today...

You are right. If I have not been clear in my posts the root issue / cause is his beliefs in coming apolcslypse. He denies it but true. I have to face a lot of fear from this . I got critically ill may 2014 . Went into cardiopulmonary arrest..The consequence of his beliefs? For me I am standing...

Thank you for the support. It is distasteful. Yes I explained it. I will over and over if I have to. My toos with lower cuts are now in the trash can.