Recent content by Llith

I often feel completely out of it when it comes to memories. Some I get confused if they are dreams or real, others I know are real but I feel like I am chasing them, always a bit behind. Really hard to know what happened when you spent alot of your time disassociated though.

:') that gave me a chuckle as I have personally experienced this 'surprise' ahahhaha, it is quite the experience :') xD

Thats awesome! May feel totally odd, but its really good that you didn't! Agreeing with the happy dance above!!!

I find this personally really hard, like my worst triggers are normally common things that other people don't even think about and I am having a panic attack in the corner. For example we had a photoshoot at work today. I hate cameras. I mean other people don't get it, it's like fear to the...

Triggers work in strange an misterious ways. That being said, they are actually quite logical. Your brain works by remembering associated events, so as long as the event is important enough for you to remember it then you can be triggered by anything it relates to, that could be the original...

I agree it is definitely better known, but I have seen 5+ therapists and it was only the last one that mentioned PTSD seriously. Even then they seemed reluctant. Just the other day my acupuncturist told me he was surprised I had PTSD so young, all the people he knew who had it were in the army...

I always seem to end up doing this, people decide to go for a 'proper' night out and I am in a pub after work and it sounds like a great idea. I manage to completely forget that drunk me = flashbacks and clubs = panic attacks and anyone hitting on me = flashbacks. I sometimes feel like part of...

I have thought many times that i would like to show what happens behind closed doors, but not just the trauma of the events but how you live with it afterwards, the simple things that become a struggle. I think it would be interesting to write something that shows the ups and downs of life as a...

This so much. I don't think I can expect anything from people but I guess it disappoints me in some way every time someone clearly shows they do not understand. My friends never got it, even for simple traumatic things that it felt safe to tell them. I would tell my best friend something and...

I do all of this in one day lol. I think it is very hard for people around me when I am laughing and joking one minute and panicing and crying the next. Sorry you had such a bad day, but people above are right, you had a bad day but you got through it fine, and you also had a good day which is...

Ah yer that's very common, I had an issue with scaring myself by constantly picking at scabs before I even started cutting.