Recent content by Lost214

@ it was only anxiety......wow. Some of your statements sound like you are throwing shade instead of telling us how to cure ourselves.

I will participate. I've been starting the negative thoughts myself and I know that won't help me.

Maybe since you only have 8 weeks left before you leave it's the universes way of getting you ready to move on. Time for a change perhaps and a new safe place. I have had the experience of my safe place no longer feeling safe. It's hard! To me feels like another loss. But someway I eventually...

Life with PTSD has impacted my life in every way imaginable. And that feeling of no direction and loneliness sucks. I can be with people I've known all my life and feel like I can't comprehend anything they are saying and like I am in a room with total strangers. Identical feeling to if I am...

Leave for your safety and sanity Let him know you love him but you can't live this way anymore and you can't watch nor be a part of his destruction. Don't enable this. I lost Near everyone and everything due to my years of denial And oh soo much. That loss saved me. Saved me!! I'd of never...

Hi Sorry to hear how badly you are struggling. Sounds like you are in basic survival mode and that's a frightening place to be. please make sure you are safe and that you stay that way. Thankfully you have not been successful with the attempts. Hard as those urges are you need to dig deep and...

Just leave it at the training. Be with your coworkers as you were before this. If any one of them bring it up you have no obligation to discuss it and you can suggest that as far as your concerned the discussion ended with the training. I had many years in healthcare and many who work in the...

Your family may never be able to see what you hope they will see. You may never get an apology or an ounce of understanding. I'm sure you know this is a possibility. This can really add to the pain of it all. But if you think about it, they probably didn't give you much in terms of validation...

Hi whirlwind What about asking him to elaborate and clarify what he meant? 4 years is a long time vested with a therapist. I tend to take things the wrong way and have to have stuff verified often. Idk what type of therapy you've had or if you've had any trauma therapy but be proud of how far...

Deep breaths You don't have to do anything or say anything. Please take the evening and just focus on your breathing and calming your mind and body. Doubt and questioning ourselves is such a part of ptsd. Telling ourselves it wasn't that bad is common as well as making excuses for our abusers...

I do this to my wonderful man. Not intentionally. It's just how I subconsciously protect myself. My thoughts can get really distorted and when it happens I'm not rational. I'll be convinced he's better off without me and I'm not healthy enough for a relationship. I have trust issues, days I...

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I too had a childhood where most everything was sinful and gonna land you in hell. Really messes with your mind and your sexuality. You are conflicted and how you were raised is likely a big part of this. I'm curious to know if you share the beliefs of your upbringing? Personally it sounds to me...

Wow you are really deep in the worm hole right now. Been there many times. I can say that I've found my way up each time. It's hard to ride the waves and you've had some serious health on top of that. You just have to keep digging and do all you can so this nightmare that is ptsd doesn't get to...

Five years from now you will see that the bullies are not making it in the world. There is so much jealousy, rage and insecurity in them that life will begin to unravel. This will only worsen for them as life goes on. I can't imagine being in the misery that truly is the bullies life. Not much...