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My boyfriend is currently paying off a perfect ring. We want to get married and start a good life as we are moving out of state soon. My PTSD haunts me though. And it hurts him too. I'm not secure and I don't trust him. It's not that I don't want to. He's lied to me a few times and it's stuff...

I'm always hearing "your PTSD is not your fault, what you're feeling is normal and understandable and should be validated blah blah blah" but then I also hear "you need to take responsibility for your feelings and your reactions you do have control etc.." I feel so alone, don't know what to...

When I was single I loved pretty girls. I never saw them as a threat. I saw them as pretty and I appreciated their good qualities. But when I started dating this guy (first relationship since trauma) I turned into some green eyed troll from hell and I get angry that pretty girls exist at all...

I guess not....my entire life I was told "I will appreciate a beautiful woman with my husband" or "girl, it's only natural for them to crave other women don't get weird about it" and everything else along those lines. I feel like desires are inescapable. I feel like my hating it is inescapable...

My boyfriend is really jealous too. But more in the sense that he's worried I'm actually going to go out and mess around on him. Even though I'm with him constantly. I'm kind of the opposite. I trust him not to act on his desires. But it's his desires that disgust me. He humps in his sleep...

He's 26 and I'm 21. You would think we would be past the huffing and puffing thing. And yes he is so obvious. Either he is obvious when gawking at them. Or he looks at me all wide eyed while a pretty girl walks by. Which only makes my insecurities super obvious. I've seen this myself as a single...

My boyfriend tries but in reality all he does is either ignore me, repeatedly ask me what is wrong, or seriously, "haha omg what is your problem?!" Asking me what's wrong is one thing, but he can be so rude sometimes and I don't think he has any idea. Even though I tell him. OR he will just try...

I have had my dog since soon before my accident and my assault. This is the first relationship I've been in since. It's very different and it's very difficult. I haven't slept well for a long time. My pup is a fantastic snuggler but because of my bf's roommate I can't usually have her over. I...

Okay, there's no need to be rude. Obviously I know I'm being irrational or I wouldn't be asking for advice on how to balance this out. I'm not asking people how I can get him to cuddle with me more. He tries. I get angry anyway. It is a part of my PTSD. You know, what this site is used for...

I have a lot of trouble sleeping. I wake up several times throughout the night and get scared. My boyfriend is the type of guy who gets hot or uncomfortable when cuddling too much so he tends to scoot away and face the other way, hugging his pillow. It actually makes me really angry. I'm that...

I love my boyfriend. I trust my boyfriend. Which really says a lot about him. The relationship is new but the connection is strong. I told him about my PTSD right away. I wasn't going to suck someone into so much drama if they didn't want to be a part of it. He seemed to understand but I knew it...

I want to start by saying, my PTSD stems from a very severe car accident and sexual assault. I'm in therapy, it is going well and I do feel as though it is helping me. Things are still really hard, the sessions and my day afterward are very emotional. For a long time I haven't been interested in...

I'm currently undergoing EMDR treatment for my PTSD. I'm right in the middle of it, so emotions are high. My PTSD is caused from a very serious car accident I was in August of 2013, and also from a friend raping me last year. This of course has caused a massive detriment on my love life. I...

Thank you for sharing that with me. I know I shouldn't blame myself. Even though I never imagined these outcomes, I knew my actions weren't the smartest moves. Not listening to that doubt is what makes me feel so foolish. Now I just doubt everything and it has consumed me. I doubt leaving my...

But I need some help and I haven't been able to talk to my therapist about it. I was diagnosed with PTSD not too long ago though I have been suffering for a year and a half. The PTSD is brought on by a car accident. I was the front passenger, we were gliding towards a two foot wide tree at 100...