Recent content by master z

I should have been more clear. I am a male and was helping someone who was recovering from domestic violence and addiction issues. Some of the things I witnessed and saw made it very hard for me to be comfortable around females in a intimate setting.

I did. I choose being there for my friend over potential romantic relationships. I still worked 70 hours a week and worked on myself

For a partner/ friend and realize only thing giving your best effort did was make you miss opportunities that you can't get back

I have a controlling abusive mom and a codependent enabling dad When I was a kid I was misdiagnosed with a learning disability I never had. So take someone who has the ability to figure out neuro behavior to treat trauma and autism but was made to feel inadequate by parents , teachers and kids...

I have always had anxiety and always had OCD tendancies because was abused as a child. Because I am 29 anxiety was treated way diffrently. Also come to terms that no matter what because of who I was dealt with for parents I would have never had the child hood I needed to be happy

What you said sounds right My way of coping up until last few months was taking care of a domestic violence victim

Hard to know how much opportunities I missed makes me sad n the second chances I don't get

Yes but after this relationship it was x 10000000

She has borderline. So a lot of things felt like I saw a ghost and didn't understand. I wanted to see someone sick get help. Once I saw how treatment centers and in patient wouldn't have made the changes that they advertise or show in movies I knew nothing would have changed the situation and I...

My story is confusing. I have trauma from my ex who has a mental illness. What connected me to her realized wouldn't change anything about her

2 things happened I saw how I was still connected to trauma and detatched from it Started listening to audio books and helped me be aware of things I didn't realize

Last week the last thing connecting me to my trauma I detatched/ cut off from. I felt a weight come off my shoulders that my trauma was in the past like it should be. What confuses me is how come after I put trauma behind me I am feeling a ton of anxiety

I think the answer is she can't give me what I need. It's hard that she is a recovering addict n when I found out.

I feel awful for not understanding and knowing she was a recovering addict. It was a mistake I made. I am giving her space. I am just angry at myself for a lot of things . While I give her space I need to move on from things I am emotional/ angry about

More complicated than that. We were dating we kissed and she went for treatment. She told me she was in a depressive period and needed space. She isn't ready for a relationship which is why I don't call her my girlfriend. But because of past romantic feelings she isn't ready to hang out