Recent content by prynne

I am sorry that this is happening to you. It's very common for people with PTSD to have trouble around the anniversary of trauma, no matter how long ago it happened. Our brain hasn't processed what happened and, on some level, believes that the trauma just happened, or that it is happening to us...

Happy for you :) It feels incredible when nothing on the list of the worst-case scenarios comes true. So relieving

This post has inspired me to do some research (when I can handle it) because how does one even begin to help a child who has been sexually abused?? I don't know the answer to that question, but I'd like to find out. In college, I was initially majoring in childhood development because I wanted...

Hugs to you @Defaultxlove, I'm so sorry😓💐That's my nightmare

My long-term boyfriend's cat is very ill and I'm afraid that he's not going to be okay. Bf is leaving town so I will be responsible for taking care of the cat and dealing with the vet alone. The vet wouldn't start any treatment until we paid the $2,000 estimate in full. Basically, she said you...

If/when things eventually do get better, I don't want to miss out on a more enjoyable version of my life. If I kill myself, I will never be able to do the things I want to do that I haven't done yet

I definitely relate. The happy and smug looks especially make me nauseous. I've been thinking about it for a while and I can't explain why other than because it's so f*cked up. Yeah, in a way because it's unexpected. No normal, safe human being responds to someone else's severe pain and terror...

I've been trying to get a handle on the same issue recently. It's hard to resist the temptation to stimulate your brain so much that you won't have a single thought about It, whatever It happens to be. I've had to delete most of my social media completely because I was just unable to use it in...

Good timing Weemie lol. This is the exact thing that I've been having so much trouble with right now. People say that all of these horrible things I believe about myself were put into my head by my abusers to make me easier to abuse and ultimately traffic, but to me, they just seem like the...

Not too great. This new merged (?) personality has a lot of harmful beliefs about my trauma. Now instead of lurking in the background, they are what I believe most of the time. On Monday, I was telling my therapist about how any time I've been raped I wanted it or it doesn't matter what I...

I'm also not sure if it's integration. This doesn't feel like anything else I've experienced. It does feel like my main personality and the A personality have merged, at least mostly. Almost 24/7 I'm experiencing traits from both of them at the same time, although usually, A's traits are much...

I have had similar experiences. For years, I believed that my childhood was completely normal and safe. Nothing bad going on here! But I was severely depressed and suicidal by 13 years old, for seemingly no reason. I would have daily "panic attacks" where I believed that a man was coming to get...

I get it. I've wanted to feel this way for years, but now that it's starting to actually happen for me, it's terrifying. Feeling happy is a huge unknown for me. I've been depressed to some extent for as long as I can remember, severely depressed since I started middle school. I don't know how to...

A few times, I've had a freeze response where I couldn't move or speak. Not being able to speak happens more often. I haven't found a way to get out of it yet, other than letting it pass on its own. I try to make myself as comfortable as possible before it fully sets in. Go to a safe place, if...

I think I am starting to experience integration. The lines between my parts are starting to get blurry. One of my parts, A, is now the same person as “me” in day-to-day life. We think as one person almost 24/7 now and I’ve accepted her traits and beliefs as my own. This has eliminated some of...