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I encountered a dramatic shift in all of my cognitive abilities a year and a half ago. Horrible short-term memory, focus shot even with Ritalin. Cognitive testing showed no brain irregularities, so I'm blaming my severe CPTSD for now.

I've always been drawn to characters in movies or on tv who are extremely able to kill someone (think soldier, police, etc.), but is extremely controlled in deciding when he would use that ability. A very strong male who who can be equally gentle. The two extremes are so sexy to me. In real...

These are some tools I've learned to use to cope with a traumatized life. I hope there's something here that will help even just a little. Breathe. Right now, I mean it. Deep breaths with the intent to relax can truly help. Repeat as often as necessary. And do other things to help stay calm...

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Oh, I so very much relate! Here's hoping we both find our ways out of isolation.

I'm struggling with finding help with my pain and this whole experience, but I found a piece that helps me. It might be worth looking closely at what pain means to you. I realized that early traumas made me associate physical pain with a threat against my life. So feeling physical pain makes...

I think "Unstoppable" with yummy Denzel is exciting and well done. It's a runaway train movie (pretty formulaic), but it always is a good distraction.

Hello and a gentle welcome to your new part. I haven't experienced this shyness before, but it makes me think of when I bring home a new cat to foster. They usually have been traumatized and basically hide under the bed. I like to sit on the floor away from the bed and just spend a few minutes...

Could this be a component (dissociative amnesia) why I keep getting involved with toxic people? If I sense they're toxic, I black out / forget and don't see it? I had numerous abusers from birth to 12 years old, but 40 years later, I still get fooled by unhealthy individuals. I do realize that...

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Welcome! I hope you find good connections and comfort here! I can't say that I share the depth of your feelings, but mine are enough to incapacitate me. You are among friends here. Reading others' posts can reduce the sense of isolation if responses aren't forthcoming, (Clearly, I don't...

I will sometimes hold, cuddle a pillow or stuffed animal as if it were that child. I'll ask her if she wants to tell me anything or send me some images (that's if I'm feeling pretty grounded.) But using the 5 senses is good: stomping my feet (while thinking or saying "No") swaddling in a blanket

I appreciate that I'm growing- I'm taking more risks regarding people. I had basically stopped trying to make or have friends about 5-7 years ago. There's one brother I talk to 2-3 times a year. otherwise, it's just me and my T and 2 neighbors I encounter every so often. I really cut people out...