Recent content by TroyW

3B is a holding asylum for the mentally ill. It is a prison type environment with no rights. They put "crazies" *their words not mine* there until deemed no longer a threat to society. Wake up in the morning and they dose you with a medical cocktail. After an extended time of medications, they...

That offspring, That Happening, Where that sidewalk ends

I think a lot of it has to do with us suffering and we do not want others to experience it with us it is very hard hope he gets better I am trying. A day at a time a step at a time.

Still no medication they are slow playing the paper work the battle goes on a step at a time just had a couple mini flashes while waiting in line for paper work

I have felt this way many Times I know how it feels being alone in a crowded room sucks not being able to express yourself because peoples judgments sucks everyone labels me as crazy. I am 23 sober still no meds flashbacks happening every day now ... I am losing my mind...

So I don't even know where to start. I have been suffering and self numbing so long that all these hidden demons were locked in their cages. Now I am 23 days sober and the flashbacks are worse and worse. They said that they may be linked to my best friends death in the fifth grade. After my...

I just had another flashback it front of the group. I feel really bad it was last year I had been drinking, I meditated and then prayed asking god to know the secret book of knowledge and to remember everything. I think the wish was answered. Our brains are very tricky, we have to be careful...

I think playing it would be good just because for me video games were my escape also. Being in control of my own little world its great and helps to take your mind off of negative thoughts. We disassociate from things we once enjoyed getting back into it would be good for your recovery I think...

I am trying after a flashback I get depression and anxiety not able to eat or sleep for a few days. I keep just wanting to cheat and numb out but know it is not going to help me. Dealing with it is better fi r me an d those around me. Just wish my family would learn about it instead of turning a...

Getting help for it will affect your future in a good way. I am receiving help now it is one of the best things n in my life... I have friends now and learning how to express happiness without drugs and alcohol 22 days sober. A day at a time..

At least now I have some tools in my box to use being able to have a forum full of understanding people and to have the hope house support is good. And knowing now what it is I am battling is a good thing. I went to the store with the group earlier saw all the alcohol wanted it so badninstead a...

Yes I have been talking to my dr about it he won't be in the house until Monday. Though the staff here is great but its still very hard for me. I don't like to share these things as I get over emotional about it. Not having my self medication procedures makes it much bigger than I thought...

I am trying still no sleep yet going to take a nap after group

Yes I get very very nervous and over excited not fun when I show to groups its about 15 min early so I get my seat I need routine to stay distracted

In a ay I was happy that finally a diagnosis was right. They teach skills and have places but you know triggers still happen and the loss of the now happens. Find a buddy or group that understands to help bring you back. The pain still continues though for me. Meds may help dull the pain but...