Recent content by WillowMarie

Had an amazing session the other day. I brought up how this strange sensation I get on my feet sometimes happened twice in the past week. This is the first time I brought it up to her as I didn't really know what it was or thought it would be weird to mention. When the feeling hits me, it feels...

I agree with rightkindofme that admitting it was abusive would mean they would need to accept some fault, so it is easier to pretend everything was fine. I know it really sucks getting that kind of response because I have, too, from my mom. When I had a family session with her in therapy, she...

I have had a couple memories pop up. One was when I was in junior high, maybe high school and I was sad that my younger brothers friend started dating someone because I was crushing on him. During this time, and some other times I was feeling sad over something, I would put on black make-up...

I remembered a memory, not sure if it was totally blocked, or if it just came back to me. During picture day senior year, I wore this blue longer than half sleeve shirt and my mom wasn't happy about it. It didn't cover all of my arms and I had some self-injury marks on my forearm. I felt like...

I guess I should add about my huge trigger in therapy about a month ago, especially since my therapist responded to the thoughts it brought up, a memory. It started by my therapist asking how my family responded to me when I expressed I was angry. She knows that I don't like to express anger...

Thank you, I guess I never really thought about reminding myself that it is safe to feel and express now, when I feel numb. I will try all of the suggestions. I may have made it through the numbness as I went to the movies yesterday and the annie trailer made me want to break down and cry...

I have been feeling very numb the past couple of weeks and would like suggestions on how to get feelings back. I have felt myself going through the motions and acting unconsciously, you know smiling, or laughing when needed. And another difference is I can't feel my body as much. Which I...

I finally mentioned it in therapy today and she said if it happens again, if I am alone to let myself act it out, let myself scream. I know she said the word cathersis (?) and said there is something good about it.

I ended up having my appointment this morning since she was booked Monday. On Monday night, whatever was going on, finally seemed to pass and I was able to counter the thoughts and feel some sort of relief from it. I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders, realized how grounded I felt (instead of...

Thank you for the replies. I will respond at some point, but right now the feelings and thoughts have come back and it is hard for me to think any other way right now. I do have an appointment tomorrow since I procrastinated and didn't cancel, so I guess I will be talking about it with her again.

That makes sense. Thank you for sharing. I will be bringing it up in my next session.

I noticed this new thing in the past month. First, the way I cried started to change. It used to be silent crying, with tears dripping down my face. I think I could be pretty dissociated during these, drifting in and out of being in my mind and in reality. Then it started to change to loud...

I had a hard session a couple days ago. I felt really upset. It still feels pretty foggy, but I will try to explain what happened. I guess I want to know if I am over reacting/wrong in how I feel. I am pretty sure we were talking about emotions and it led to her asking if anything bad...

When I weaned off of Zoloft, after my last does I took, I felt sick for about a week with the "flu-like symptoms". Feeling crumby and dizzy. For the next month or so, I experienced these brain zaps. I was worried they would never stop, but they finally did.

I can relate a lot tothe feelings of wanting to know what happened and feeling jealous of others how seem to have many memories popping up. I have struggled and beat myself up over it. I have also felt frustrated because of it. But I agree with others, at least now, that you will remember when...