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Velvette.scar
Hi everyone, I'm a 28 years old girl, last year I got a scar on my face, near the nose, visible. I'm doing everything in my power and my doctors power to make it better. The first period was very hard on me, I thought about suicide every day, cried every day and was (still am) generally depressed. During the accident I had my best friend with me, it was a ski trip and after lunch I wanted to leave the skis and go for dessert, but my friend wanted to ski one last time, I went even if I didn't want... the last turn was the one, even with the eye mask and the helmet, I lost a tooth, broke nose, cheeckbone, ocular orbit and a laceration on my face... was trasported with the elicopter to the nearest hospital and then sutured and operated a week after the accident. My friend was with me during almost everything... but I was angry, mad and she was talking about a future winter, what she did the day after my accident with her cousins, a future trip... when I couldn't even think about the next day. So I stopped talking to her, writing to her, even seeing her caused me anger. I started therapy and taking antidepressive meds, the suicidal thought are not so strong anymore... but the separation from her is still the hardest part of my journey.
I want to make contact with her, but sometimes I still feel anger towards her, I don't know what to do...
My therapist wants me to make the first move, sometimes it feels right, sometimes it doesn't.
The other painfull part of all this, is my very low vision of myself, I was feeling very good with my body but after that I was left broken, ugly, so I started to seclude myself, not going outside, very troublesome relation with the mirror. I never had a boyfriend and sometimes I think I'll never have one... who wants a girl with a scar on her face?
I don't know what to do... do I talk to her... sometimes I still question myself if living is really what I want to do
I want to make contact with her, but sometimes I still feel anger towards her, I don't know what to do...
My therapist wants me to make the first move, sometimes it feels right, sometimes it doesn't.
The other painfull part of all this, is my very low vision of myself, I was feeling very good with my body but after that I was left broken, ugly, so I started to seclude myself, not going outside, very troublesome relation with the mirror. I never had a boyfriend and sometimes I think I'll never have one... who wants a girl with a scar on her face?
I don't know what to do... do I talk to her... sometimes I still question myself if living is really what I want to do
