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I've felt that way and it's horrible, really, really awful. I've found the same as @Friday, either things are getting better or worse. I felt this way going into the abusive relationship with my ex, but, it was arrested by getting pregnant to him, 7 times. Then, it was this feeling that helped...

That sounds incredibly hurtful and confusing @Jane5050. I hope you are able to get out of there soon. It's so weird when family members who have treated us terribly treat other's well. I'm dealing with that with my mum and my ex as well. More so my ex as I don't think my ma is that great to...

If you are talking about having self compassion? Even though you aren't functioning great right now? I get it. My best, at the moment, means slowing right down to focus on getting well. Meeting my children's needs, by being much more present than I was able to, in the past, when I was much...

I hope you find it as helpful and supportive as other's of us have, here.🙂

Grateful that I don't have to go out anywhere today. Grateful for my supportive and hardworking guy friend. Grateful for my online yoga teacher, I love you Adriene!🥰. Grateful for my new carpets. Grateful for space by myself today. Grateful for stability ( homewise and income and such, and no...

Weasel

Typically? tired; but extra, as yesterday was a BIG day. I bit more integrated, from support from my guy friend. Reasonably stable. Hopeful, I think I've found a new friend. A little less cut off, as I'm doing group therapy, and it seems to be helping.

I might have to give it a watch. I am much warmed to Ricky Gervais, as he seems to be his own person, unlike much of the Hollywood and celebrity intelligensia.

I watched the first season of True Detectives again. Brilliant!

I'm still here

The way the world's going, I think I might have to read "Man's search for meaning" too. The current political/"health care" climate has way too many elements that remind me of the political climate that lead to Victor Frankl's incarceration.

I need a T, a good one who gets it, who's gonna be reliable, who ticks all the "BRAVING" checkboxes, who treats me with respect and is reasonably genuine. I need a low demand regime as I am so very, very, tired from raising my very, large, family, for so long, with so much dysfunction and...

Picts

I made it through the whole entry. I, actually, found it quite easy to read, not that your life sounds easy, just your writing style. I can relate quite a bit. The going wild as a young person, yep, I did that too. I'm glad you've finally found someone who seems solid. I would suggest that...

Horse

I feel fortunate in that my guy friend, who has also been through ridiculous amounts of traumautic stuff, teases me endlessly, so even when I am feeling a bit sorry for myself, he'll tease me about it, so I have no choice but to laugh at myself and playfully wop him on his muscular arms and...

I just woke up, feeling a bit better today. It's 6.53 here. A cool, late spring, morning. Glad to be awake coz the dream I was having was very unpleasant.

Not feeling super awesome either, just gonna sit quietly with y'all. Too tired for a walk, hopefully tomorrow my energy will return, in which case, a walk would be lovely, I like walks with loved ones🚶‍♀️.🙂❤

Yep, I frequently make light of my crazy shit storm of a life, my disabilities, and struggles, and use humour and laughter, jokes and silliness as a way to cope with it all.

I would rather see things as they are and they are complex; there is good, evil, and every shade and facet between. Good exists, and it is a treat to experience, and our birthright, I believe, but it is not a given, until we realize that it is our's to cultivate and bring out of ourselves, to...

It sounds like hypervigilance. My guy is like this, if he hears any out- of-the-ordinary sounds outside he turns stuff down or off and listens or goes outside. It's a totally common and normal survival response after threatening experiences. I'm gonna say more common for guys, as I have CPTSD...

Yeah, I've done similar. Music, dancing, energy work, TRE- Trauma release exercises, ethnobotanicals, my own "soul retrieval" some of which happened spontaneously, writing-poetry, songwriting, journaling, yoga, spiritual awakening experiences via various learnt techniques of...

I will do. I'm in Australia and unfortunately the books weren't too affordable for me, yet, but I'll get there. I'm a bookaholic and spend way too much on books, but in this case, I think the investment will be worthwhile.

Feel like I've been through the wringer, again. Exhausted and wired, headachey, uptight, sober, overloaded, grateful for my amazing partner/friend, pretty safe in my house but not beyond that, still feeling sidelined, still frustrated and jaded, still caring and in my heart, still a bit...

I've been looking into trying to purchase that book recently. It looks very relevant for what I'm dealing with. I read an article by her. It was so on point. I've a feeling I will feel "met" and that her books will describe how I struggle and help me get out in the world again.