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  1. OceanSpray

    Hunger Scale

    The wisdom is to start eating when you’re about a 3 and stop when you get to a 6 or 7. But as someone very out of touch with my hunger and fullness cues, can anyone shed light on their personal scale? What does 3 mean to you? 6?
  2. OceanSpray

    I am asking for some possible assistance, please. Overwhelming guilt & shame.

    It’s hard to pinpoint stuff like this when the ones giving tips aren’t the ones in the room with you. I could help far more if I was able to interact with you in person and get a better feel for what they mean. Since that’s not a possibility, what I would do is bring this to my therapist and...
  3. OceanSpray

    Weird problem: My Dissociation is Broken

    Kinda miserable, kinda okay lol. Wasn’t able to ever really zone out and so it was a very long drive of all kinds of recent feelings and things coming up that I had to actually sit there and feel out. Which ultimately was good I guess, the therapist was happy about it lol. It was extremely...
  4. OceanSpray

    Pets & PTSD

    Like stated above, my animals (mostly dogs, couple of cats) keep me getting up everyday even on the worst days. They force me to do something which makes it easier to then do other things since now I’m already up. Plus, gotta keep a job so I can keep feeding them, etc. I genuinely have no idea...
  5. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Cried tonight. A lot. Marking for therapy.
  6. OceanSpray

    Childhood CSA/COCSA

    Are you seeing a therapist? This is my frustration with extremely uneducated but highly religious households. Kids play and learn and discover and now there’s all this huge shame that shouldn’t be there because nobody stopped to talk about what’s normal and what’s not. Talk to a therapist and...
  7. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I had a thread about fantasies and masturbation awhile ago and I don’t feel like unburying it so I’ll just post here. Some changes have happened and it’s left me kind of frustrated. I can’t seem to get myself there anymore. None of the old fantasies are working anymore, but nothing new and...
  8. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Had therapy yesterday and started feeling way better about so many things and then bam we’re back to nightmareville. How wonderful.
  9. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    So that’s at least three people now who don’t get it. I feel crazy.
  10. OceanSpray

    Weird problem: My Dissociation is Broken

    Therapy isn’t until tomorrow, I’ve had a mentally weird/frustrating/not great few days, AND I’m doing a 4+ hour road trip by myself today. It’s the perfect time to zone out into daydreams which are my typical version of dissociating. It’s not the best coping mechanism but there is something...
  11. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I thought I had an understanding that my mother and I weren’t fundamentally different. I didn’t realize how set in stone that thought was until tonight. I didn’t realize just how core level I’ve considered is ultimately the same. We won’t go into why that’s not a sweet sentimental thought...
  12. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I don’t know who I am.
  13. OceanSpray

    Is it wrong to “use” a religion for community?

    Thank you both! I think next weekend I’m going to give it a try.
  14. OceanSpray

    Is it wrong to “use” a religion for community?

    What I mean is I’m thoroughly agnostic, I don’t identify with any particular religion, I have some issues around religions in general. There are two that have large populations near me that I have personal experience with. I’ve been engrained in both at different points and will never be a...
  15. OceanSpray

    Other Accountability thread: back pain treatment and ptsd/fibro

    I don’t know if you’re open to suggestions on this thread, but can you do exercises that aren’t exclusively exercise? I also struggle with movement for the sake of just exercising. But things like swimming, hiking, maybe even indoor rock climbing are far more fun.
  16. OceanSpray

    You Know You Have PTSD When...

    When you argue that it’s perfectly fine for you to go home without pay even though you worked just because someone else showed up that also wanted to work.
  17. OceanSpray

    Looking for help to define a feeling

    Usually that’s anxiety for me.
  18. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Thank you Friday, this does help a lot. I’m not ignoring, just taking time to absorb and figure myself out.
  19. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    When you frame it that way I want to rage and be like of course there’s a massive difference. But also, I made that idiotic statement and got myself stuck here. You’re never overstepping, I’m just struggling.
  20. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I think this part might be what I struggle with the most. Because yes, most humans can observe all the life around them and choose different. But I think where I get stuck is even with that, so many of us have these ruts that we’ve been stuck in due to childhood wounds that it takes forever to...
  21. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I’ve been in a weird place lately. First working on shame has actually had a pretty big effect on the space in my brain. It’s actually working. Then I started an exercise from the book The Artist’s Way, that’s really great. It truly is. It’s basically doing a very large brain dump every day...
  22. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Haven’t had a nightmare in ages and suddenly there’s a stalker rapist following me around and gets a hold of my dog and tortures him as a message for me. Gonna be a great f_cking day.
  23. OceanSpray

    Talking With My Husband About Why He Would Leave Me To Go To His Adult Daughter’s & Grandchildren

    If you’re genuinely separating, his finances or lack of are not your problem. They are his to solve. I don’t know what your plan here is, or if you even have one. But I’m afraid just taking your rings off but not following up with any other action won’t get you the results you’re looking for...
  24. OceanSpray

    Talking With My Husband About Why He Would Leave Me To Go To His Adult Daughter’s & Grandchildren

    Would it be possible to sell the RV, split the resulting money between the two of you, and start lives separate from each other that way? I’m only pushing because I don’t see how any of your stress will be reduced if you are both still in a very small living space together.
  25. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Covered a lot in therapy. A lot. But found something pretty healing. There’s a YouTuber named Dr. John Deloney and he’s got a lot of shows surrounding the topic of child molestation and abuse. It is so freaking good to hear a man, specifically, openly show anger and condemnation for it. It’s...
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