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I got through two more days, it's getting slightly better but today had another bad spell today, but rode it out. @TruthSeeker I had some trouble going through the stories, I'm going to try when my cognition is better just struggling with the fog! I have a psych appointment next week and I may...

Oh I love that @TruthSeeker !! I’ll join in tomorrow!!

@TruthSeeker it used to help me A LOT and stabilized my mood for days if I took a high enough dose. Then I was able to take a smaller dose throughout the day. But it can be a mixed bag for me, and realizing that I’m not going to get a card when I move to my next state. I made it through...

I talked to my therapist and I may up my medication dose as well just temporarily. CBD can only go so far. I’ve been avoiding THC because I think it can spike mood swings sometimes. No alcohol for me for a while.

Thank you @Mach123 I’m glad you’re still here!! Thank you @TruthSeeker !! I’m trying my best. Having another bad wave of it right now but getting through.

Thank you @Mach123 , I relate a lot. Like I’m very good at pretending to be okay. The only thing that changes when I’m like this is I get really really short with people and say mean things. But I’m still usually able to go about life like normal. It’s just like walking through a cheesy soup or...

Thank you all. I’m struggling to respond to individual messages but I’m going to try but wanted to say thank you!! @Still Standing I think I know what’s causing the pain, but looking at it that way I’m going to plan things that help. @TruthSeeker I honestly have enough saved up, my problem was...

Thank you @desiderata310 after seeing this I got in touch with my therapist and she got me in tomorrow morning and gave me a hotline if I needed it too. I’ve just been trying to take care of myself. I took a loong walk, had a nice meal, and am going to take a bath and meditate. Usually I have...

Idk what else to do. I want to try to die so bad so maybe my parents will take me seriously when I tell them I'm suicidal. I can't believe I let it get to this point and I also can't believe that I'm so unstable, I'm such a failure. If I had just kept trying maybe I would be in my own place by...

It was a bit better for about two weeks and now I've had it all weekend and into today. I felt a little better last night but everything feels hopeless again. I really just want to die. I'm thinking about putting a date on it: if the things that are making me suicidal don't change by a certain...

Thank you @Recovery4Me !! I did well today for the most part, have had increased anxiety in the afternoon and a panic attack. But resting now! Tackling school one step at a time!

It got better yesterday and the day before but today it came back because I had a COVID trigger, my parents risked our health by going to a family gathering with children that have been in school and my uncle who had covid symptoms and recently went to the beach and eats out at restaurants and...

Thank you @Friday that’s a really good idea!! I’m moving to a place with tons of hurricanes so I’m going to do that down there. Also I’m the same way, fine in a crisis but crash after. I was totally fine through the scary part and even making back up plans for everything. When it was okay, all...

Thank you @RussellSue !! I’m sorry you had to experience that but glad it’s better now that you’ve moved. I think once we move and are more financially secure it’ll help too. Right now it’s so out of control. I can’t wait to be able to get everything more controlled.

Thank you @MrMoonlight !!! There’s certainly a lot of stressors. I am doing my best, I just hate it still affecting me.

Recently, mainly with this pandemic, but also back before I had a good treatment plan in place, I have these panic spells where I feel like a little child, all afraid. A lot of things with this pandemic have caused this, and I think also still living with my parents (they're fine just certain...

Thank you @Pepper360 !! I’ll check that out!

I did better today, the morning was rough I immediately spiraled thought wise but I forced myself through and ended up having a good day. Now that it's night tho it's overwhelming again. I'm just trying to be nice to myself. I think some of it has to do with anniversary dates.

It's something I frequently struggle with, since I was a kid (I started self harming at like 10 or 11) but it got way worse when I was 16. It's gotten better over the years, at 16 I actually kept things for a plan and at times would "test it out" without actually trying, without giving too many...

I've been having so many suicidal thoughts lately. Fantasizing about how I'd do it actually keeps me going because if I could just get out if it gets too much, I could just stop dealing with this bullcrap that is life. And I can think about how great it would be if I could just not deal with...

I think I may email her, I have to email her about something else too! I actually feel way way better today because I went out and did things and had a friend (who has also been very safe with quarantining and all) come visit today. I also had some really, really good exciting news happen so I'm...

I've been struggling, badly, for a few weeks. Depressive spirals (caused by negative self defeating thought patterns), relapsed into self harm, relapsed into my eating disorder both binging and restriction, having panic attacks again, and suicidal thoughts daily (and even looking up methods...

I feel like honestly everyone has bad weeks here and there, it just depends on the severity! I was doing pretty well for a while and have had some life changes push me back into depression and PTSD symptoms.

I can't, because if they don't sell it they will lose it ? it's a tough scenario, they have to sell it to move anyways. I think the financial stuff is contributing to the depression, too. Thank you!! So I was still really bad, so I made an action plan: tough self care that I could do in the...

I'm at a low, low point today. My whole body aches (not COVID, at least I don't think) and my mood is so, so low. I got stuff done today, at least, but I think it made my mood worse. I can feel myself nearing "better off dead" territory. I'm doing everything to help myself. I just don't even...