Mach123
MyPTSD Pro
I’m really sorry you feel like this as it’s a very familiar feeling and I don’t have it anymore. I remember it and I can feel it but, it’s in the background. I suppress it I suppose and medicate it. There is plenty to be upset about. I’m old though, which I sincerely believe makes it easier. People always chide you and say, you’re not old lol. But I jumped in the car yesterday and ran and did something and I watched myself do what I had to and not panic, it’s almost a shame really, like survivor guilt. I was in fight or flight for years .
The long and short of all this is, I did a couple real serious things to get everyone to pay attention and they finally did. I don’t recommend it, and it’s not like I did it on purpose or anything but, suicide is something people would really rather avoid and or prevent. In my case I was hiding so strenuously, you couldn’t help notice.
Looking back I’m surprised nobody really stepped in. They hinted at me and tisk tisked at me, but they didn’t want to get involved. Most people have their own stuff to deal with.
So call the suicide hotlines and go to the emergency room and so on. I called those people because I didn’t want to feel suicidal and I didn’t want to do it. I couldn’t go on feeling like I was though or I figured I was going to get around to it eventually, if I didn’t try and fix me (again). The people who handle this professionally know what they are doing and will help you. You can’t be expected to do anything or help yourself If you are feeling like that. You need to get stabilized first. I hope you feel better.
The long and short of all this is, I did a couple real serious things to get everyone to pay attention and they finally did. I don’t recommend it, and it’s not like I did it on purpose or anything but, suicide is something people would really rather avoid and or prevent. In my case I was hiding so strenuously, you couldn’t help notice.
Looking back I’m surprised nobody really stepped in. They hinted at me and tisk tisked at me, but they didn’t want to get involved. Most people have their own stuff to deal with.
So call the suicide hotlines and go to the emergency room and so on. I called those people because I didn’t want to feel suicidal and I didn’t want to do it. I couldn’t go on feeling like I was though or I figured I was going to get around to it eventually, if I didn’t try and fix me (again). The people who handle this professionally know what they are doing and will help you. You can’t be expected to do anything or help yourself If you are feeling like that. You need to get stabilized first. I hope you feel better.