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X-men had me dyyyiing.

I've been in chronic pain since I was 14 and no amount of "it's just in your head" has ever reduced it even minutely, let alone eliminated it. You can also plainly see when I have a flare-up that the nerves in my leg are being activated by causing swelling, flushing etc. I have studied...

I have OCD (which has now been diagnosed! I didn't even need to take a test, my therapist was just like "o yeah, you Got The CeeDee, babeyyy." lmfao.) which makes a lot of this "acceptance" stuff a LOT more difficult than if I didn't, because OCD is basically a spot in your brain that is broken...

I have absolutely zero desire to initiate contact with any of the just about a hundred individuals who abused me over the course of 5, almost 6 years. If at any point any of these individuals reach out to me, and do so in a way that demonstrates a comprehension of restorative justice and...

I used to have this problem around men. Even my own father got high on crack and started watching hard core pornography and rubbing himself while I was in a state dependent dissociative fugue spitting out absolute garbage about abuse because the crack in my body basically launched me 10 years...

See, I've never had that. My brain slows everything waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy doooowwwwnnnnn and I see everything crystal clear and can make decisions in those moments. Fear simply isn't a factor. I don't get that sensation in my body. Everything is just slow and steady until I can act. I'd jump...

Same. I spend all day either playing video games or learning. I need things to be packaged in a specific way tho. I'm trying to teach myself wilderness survival now to prepare for being homeless. I watch a shit ton of survival shows and YouTube videos and podcasts. I have a book with edible...

James Joyce is hilarious. Ulysses is a slog but his letters to Nora Barnacle make me laugh every time. I also enjoy shit (as does James Joyce) like The Iliad, Metamorphosis, and a lot of ancient Greek literature. If you can't read the actual works, learning about the authors is a good strategy...

My favorite story/"book" of all time is a Star Trek fanfiction called Secret Vulcan Mating Rituals by chase820. Observations by jAnon is another fantastic work. Pat Foley has produced some of the most legit Vulcan cultural objects of the series. Her pieces about Sarek and Amanda are on the same...

It could be dissociative fugue which is caused by a number of factors: psychological trauma (by which "I don't remember any trauma in childhood" is unreliable as you've already proven a dissociative fugue response with amnesia), psychosis, bipolar, schizophrenia etc. However as you mentioned...

I feel you. I didn't have much of a childhood either. By the time I was 8 I was fully adult, making adult decisions, planning things in an adult way, looking after others as an adult would. Before that I took care of myself, prepared my own food as much as I could (by stealing), playing with...

🤷‍♂️ It's relevant to my life to be up-to-date on the latest faction of people who want to kill me or strip me of my basic human rights.

It's called flooding! After a serious stressor we sometimes can't keep a handle on our emotions and it all comes spewing out. After not speaking it for so long your mind and body are desperate to expel this garbage. Good news is that this forum here is the exact place to do that. It's...

There is no purpose in speaking with him when he is clearly not invested in the process of restorative justice. I speak from experience as a perpetrator - talking with the people you have victimized needs to come from a place of intent to repair the harm you have caused. That starts with being...

Nah bro this is your space! I had a reply but then I just went off about my shit so I moved it to my own diary. But you are correct, the folks who caused me harm who are not dead or in jail are very much living the good life to this day. I can only take solace that I didn't become a trafficker...

We used to make "kitchen napalm" and throw Molotovs at cars and buildings and a few times people made shit like IED/pipe bomb type shit that was not strong enough to produce a huge shockwave but it's still crazy to be near. Sorry man I'm rambling away in your diary but all to say even a...

I feel you. I was indoctrinated into an armed group/organized crime as a kid and trained to be as violent and aggressive as possible with people giving me crack and PCP and shit to make me even wilder. I did a lot of horrific shit that I've had to deprogram and I got some good therapy at Romeo...

I don't have any experience with deployment but I do have some with being near or setting off explosive/IED devices. I think it really does absolutely destroy your nervous system when it happens and introduces the most "fight or flight" adrenalized responses that we have as a species. Being in...

I was misdiagnosed with DDNOS! I am correctly diagnosed now as schizoid. The interesting thing about schizo-spectrum disorders is that it is very, very common for us to both: have voices in our head that are distinct in personality, as well as to construct personas that we then "step into" and...

I think whether someone classifies it as rape or not (since "rape" is a legal term as well as a colloquial one) it is still an incredibly negative, and often traumatic experience. Legally speaking, you're unlikely to face any real consequences for "wheedling someone" until they f*ck you. But...

Hope you can get some help for it, wishing you luck.

No. There are no "responses" to rape that suddenly make it the victim's "fault." It is his fault for raping you. Whatever your "response" was, is irrelevant.

Like anything else there will be a variety of factors in play. My experience having encountered probably hundreds of offending pedophiles over the course of my life, they come from several camps. Some are very intellectually impaired and it's obvious, if these people are abused as kids they...