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Depression is weird. Feel like I just woke up a bit today and answered 5 messages from friends in half hour instead of barely getting to one a day and that feels like something 🙃

Roadtrip

@arfie point taken with all layers of meaning. Thank you for the perspective @arfie point taken with all layers of meaning. Thank you for that! Thanks for the perspective! Trust me, never judged you by age, but I judged myself. Definitely something to let go of!

Thank you for this @arfie . It was equally sweet, heartwarming and funny. It's weird feeling old cause I have seen in practice that age is not really a sign of what one can or can't be doing above the age of 20 (for legal purposes, though some are more mature due to... well, life) but being here...

Took me all day but I had the conversation I needed to have. Brutal but I'm okay(well alive so that's something) and now hopefully I get sleep before the next challenge. It's bad but beside sleep I Don't have that much keeping me balanced other than regular sleep now so it's not something I can...

@abovedown I can relate to the whole puzzle you can't solve thing. I wasn't just meant to do better than my parents. I was meant to save them from poverty into the life they were trying to have. I was told all my life how they loaned money to relatives and were left with nothing. I Don't know...

@arfie @abovedown I feel heartbroken from myself if that made sense. I'm only a burden to my family but I can't move yet. And I'm also feel like a math equation AND super old here. (too old for help, too messed up to manage otherwise. The math equation being, I was allowed to go to uni, and...

Classic

How do I untangle myself? I'm alone where I live and I hate my current situation more and more each week. I don't live where I did before and with that, getting some piece and quiet per day to do what I need to do is my biggest achievement... that and teaching once a week despite of no warning...

being home (is hard)

Carnaval

I hate when m9vies are misrepresented.started watching something that was sort of promoted like a love triangle between soldier and his wife and brother. Turned out it was more about the PTSD of said soldier from what he experienced and the gap between him and his family when he came back. And...

When you hear or see something triggering and suddenly it's like you're split between the present and feeling like you're looking at your life from above and you can't recognize and everyone seems normal and far from you. And you can't remember the month or season or realize what you do has...

Woke up in panic and the dream (nightmare) is still pulsing through my body, coming back in pieces and waves and I can't detach from it immediately. Like there is danger in it that I need to remember to protect myself. The details still k like sand on your wet skin and I can't fully shake it off.

I don't know honestly. It's confusing because a lot of what they describe can overlap with the feelings you get from childhood trauma as well, just to a bigger degree. I went over the major depressive disorder symptoms and I tick almost all of them. However in the psychotic I relate to the same...

Johannesburg, South Africa

@Abstract I can relate, living with my parents is the same. Have to cope for now. It has it's calmer moments like now and I am doing my best to use those, but it's hard. Me right now: Didn't know how much my body needed yoga after 10 days of no exercise. All my muscles were in knots and now...