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It's a difficult situation with it at the moment, and the contact was needed and important to support someone else in our family, who he was concerned about and wanted me to be there for, but I just find it so hard and feel so torn between his concern and and knowing he does care for us, and...

Thank you so much @Echo. I just feel so much like I want it all to go away. It is hard to feel anything other than hatred towards myself at the moment. I know that is not ok and on so many other levels do not want to feel like that, but it is so hard and still so so scary. The person who all...

I have come back to this post having just come out of my last session and everything just feels so overwhelming at the moment, and I know I have to keep hold so much of that hope. I am scared. Scared of the past, scared of the present and scared that I cannot keep going to the future any more...

Thank you. Helen

I am not surprised that you have still been exhausted, and being open to dialogue is the most important thing, so that your 20 year old part can come up when she knows she is ready to, and I know it will come up when it is right and does need to. I had already been working through a lot of the...

I am very glad that you have got her, but also know that it is you who has had to find the courage to really be able to face this, and really am proud of how massivly well you are doing. Helen

I have been thinking of you lots, and really hope that you are doing well. God Bless Helen

@macca I am sorry to hear that you worry so much about your children. I know I fear a lot about the things I have also passed to my children, but do also know that it is true that the relationships which a child has, do make such a difference to anything they go through even when they experience...

I certainly agree about the battle, just wish there was a bit more restbite at times! @Echo I didn't get the chance to write back when I read what you had written earlier, but really do appreciate it and thank you so much for your inspiration and encouragement too. I do know for myself that if I...

I also want to thank you for sharing @macca. I am so glad this has been such a massive breakthrough for you, and am so glad that you were able to get the validation which you truly deserve in that child part, which must have been so terrified for so long. God bless Helen

Thank you so much @Echo for your kind words. You really do not need to feel bad for not getting back to check on me. I appreciate your thoughts so much and know that when it is hard it is hard to reach out so much to others too, but know that does not mean that you do not care, and really do...

I am not surprised that you are utterly exhausted after today, and really hope you are able to really look after yourself and have a good rest tonight. I am also so glad that you are able to feel so safe with your therapist, and know this is so important, and can relate so much to coming to...

I am really sorry to hear this and also agree with @Bedbug and @Echo and really hope that you are able to get through to someone who will respond and support you in this. You are doing so well in how far you have come over this last bit of time, and I am really praying that you can find safety...

Glad things are a bit better for you today and I hope it goes well tomorrow with your therapist. Things are still up and down with me and pretty mixed, but I am ok. Thank you too. Helen

Been thinking of you today and hope your migraine had cleared by the time you woke up and that you have managed to get enough of your work done. God bless Helen

You have put so well everything inside you and I can relate so much to a lot of what you are saying. In everything you have written you come off as so strong and so compassionate. The fear of the emotions still seems so strong and I know this for me is also the case, as I am wanting so much to...

I am really hoping that by now you are fast asleep and are able to wake tomorrow feeling more refreshed and having been able to sleep off the migraine. You do not need to feel that you have to answer everyone individually and I am glad it has helped you to have the supoort on here. Also as I...

I am so sorry to hear all the things you are going through. You have no reason to be ashamed at all of writing on here or having the feelings. You have offered so much kindness and support to others and certainly deserve it yourself, and no one on here is going to say we don't believe you or...

I personally am pretty honest with most people, and though I do not go into it with lots of people, do feel for me that it is important to be honest as for me it is part of also allowing myself to actually be real, which is something I had not even allowed myself to do for so long, even though I...

Thank you @Echo. It certainly does help so much to be here where people understand so much and really does feel so massive and overwhelming when it is all going so deep. I just feel like I have completely fallen apart at times, but know that it is true that the light really is the only thing...

I hope you managed to get the emails out OK. I often feel that it is crazy how much anxiety can come from things which to others may seem like such small things, but am so glad you are able to recognise why it is so hard and why it is such a battle and hope that being able to use the techniques...

Thank you so much @franciemarnie. It certainly does get so dark at times and is scary how quickly it can come on and how hard it can be to get out. Safe hugs appreciated so much. Helen

Just for the record its not just women. One of the best dads I know had told me before that he did not want to have children as he was scared he would be like his parents, but as I said he is great. I think awareness is one of the most important things, and though it is certainly hard and I know...

I don't want to add too much more now, but this evening I ended up just asking my husband if he would look after the children for me and took the time out to go to our evening service. It is always a small service and I knew it was about psalm 23 today, which is a very safe psalm for me and one...

Glad to hear you at least took it easy last night and though its not nice to be forced into it, am glad you are going to go back into the taking it more easy. Even before the suicide attempt you had been running on so little and so much needed that break and to take it easy, and with the added...