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I am not an expert on Buddhism but I am going to express my annoyance at how certain traditions have been adapted in an effort to address psychological conditions in the West. Most of this mindfulness theory is a Westernized version of Vipassana, a practice found within Theravada Buddhism. It...

Ok I'll have a go at this. What is the actual issue? Is it that he is treating the cat unfairly, judging the cat for something that the cat could not control? That could be triggering if you were a kid who was punished severely for things you didn't do or couldn't control. Or are you worried...

My job requires a lot of international travel and the only the thing that helped me was drugs (Lorazepam and sometimes Alcohol) I tried phobia therapy, the classes at the airport, nothing worked. I finally gave in and started taking Lorazepam and a decade later, I still take it. And you know...

I know this sounds kind of technical and I don't mean it to come off morbid or unfeeling but do you mean your own body parts or looking at body parts that are still attached to live people or body parts that are no longer part of a person? Body parts don't trigger me but I feel tremendous...

Feeling like you are done can happen on a lot of different levels. Can you clarify? Do you have a plan for each day even if it's just :do laundry, make a dental appointment?

This has been my experience. Couldn't manage being single or married. Both made me more symptomatic but in different ways. Right now I am in I don't need a relationship mode. During both of my marriages I vacillated between codependent, how do I please you and you do your thing, I'll do mine...

I am not sure what a dissociative fugue is but I have had episodes in my life where I became frightened, dissociated into a part and took off for a couple of hours. This even happened a few times when my children were small and I took them with me. Very scary stuff! It doesn't happen anymore...

Very small progress but really motivated to get this sorted. I want to have healthy intimate mutually enjoyable sex at least once in my life before I die. My goals right now are: 1. be 100% present during sex, no dissociating into a part, even if being present means being symptomatic and...

Chronic fatigue is very common after cancer treatment, particularly a treatment that included both chemotherapy and radiation. Are you going to physiotherapy?

Happy to hear you went through with and that it turned to be a great date!

Yes, yes, and yes. This is my situation exactly. I work with a great group of highly skilled medics. They are very supportive but they need to trust me. If I act "crazy" I lose that trust and then might as well go home. Sneaking a few drinks in my hooch at night is socially acceptable though...

I wish I could go to a reg doc. Unfortunately I am in an austere environment and I am the reg doc and heal thyself is just not something I am so good at. I get what you mean though, maybe an SSRI would help too. I guess the reason I have avoided dealing with drinking for so long is that I have...

I think we are on the same page. I feel like in some ways I would be worse back home right now. I need to make some money here so that I can get a new place to live when I get back and I get a break from the relational drama/trauma/mutually abusive misery that was my long-term marriage. I'm...

@Warrior Chicken Everything you have shared with me is helpful. I really appreciate hearing from someone who gets it. I most definitely hide it all and defer to drinking. My function at work has not been affected and hopefully it won't be but I agree that if it were to slip and I couldn't get...

I'm not sure if this is the right prefix. If not, maybe one of the mods can make a change. I am a civilian working in an operational environment for the next year. My original trauma had nothing to do with combat and I am not a veteran. I do have decades of civilian emergency medicine under...

This is what my T was discussing with me this week. My kids are off at college and I am finally getting divorced so the possibility of dating and new relationships has come up and when it does I completely panic. I think I am mostly afraid that if I feel attracted to someone, then they must be...

@TruthSeeker I found this essay about integration on the Sidran Institute website that helped clarified it for me. It was written by a therapist who had been treated for DID and ultimately integrated. She says post-integration therapy is 1/3 to 1/4 of total treatment. Her definition of...

I think you did the right thing. You messaged your T asking for help. It sounds like your T didn't perceive that you were in such a bad way and made a misstep. While that was not what you needed at the time, your T was responsive once you did talk to him and he has re-adjusted his approach.

I have had a somewhat similar experience during therapy I sometimes have a sense of all of my selves huddled together and listening. I have also spontaneously integrated a couple of parts that were internal enforcers of a system of "rules". Once I gave up the rules, I guess I didn't need...

@Zoogal I agree with everything you say. I just don't seem to be able to apply that same compassion to myself. Knowing it isn't the same as feeling it. I seem to be stuck. This is exactly how I feel. I hadn't thought of it as being part of complex PTSD or a dissociative disorder but it makes...

You are right. This is the place to start, because I don't blame other children. There was an older kid, maybe 11, who was also being abused by the pedophile. This kid is the one who first took me to the pedophile's house and was his enforcer over me and another younger kid, we were about 5 or...

I'm feeling like there is a monster inside today. I just came to accept that while I was being abused by a pedophile neighbor, I was also abusing other children. The pedophile was also a pornographer and he would set up scenes with me and other kids or adults that he would film or photograph. I...

With Medicare you might be able to get in to see a psychiatrist while you are on the therapy waitlist.

It sounds like you may be a little interested too. If that is the case then, sure, respond and say I'd love to have lunch sometime and hear more about your project. It may be that you have lunch and discover that there is a mutual interest or you have lunch and discover he sees the business...