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I am not suicidal but sometimes even when my overall mood is ok I sometimes get fleeting images of how I could attempt. Occasionally a thought of "I just want to die". But I don't. At it's worst, it can be very frequent and pull me into a depressed state. Occasionally I can look back and find a...

Today I had a dentist appointment and they are always stressful experiences. Halfway through the hygenist was cleaning around a tooth that had to be repaired due to an assault when I was on the streets at 16 over 20 years ago. Suddenly I was having rapid memories of the assault followed by the...

My youngest sister is getting married. For the last year or so I have made the choice not to go to "family" events unless they are at my aunt and uncles or my other sisters. If I go to my bio parents I get weirdly emotional and "little" and unwanted even though they give me no reason in the...

Last night was the third time my kitty (who is a little over a year old) has woken me up by patting my head and face with her paws and nudging me with her nose. I don't remember exactly what happened in the nightmare/ bad dream last night, just that it was about my trauma. One of the other...

Ever since I was a teenager I've been getting these. The 1st time was awful and they were very itchy and EVERYWHERE. Since then I get them almost every year only on my fingers but they aren't very itchy. I consider them one of my PTSD symptoms and I've since found that they are a common stress...

I don't know what a watcher part does or if they do different things for different people but call themselves watchers. Mine doesn't seem to do anything other than laugh and refuse to talk the my T. Thoughts? Insight?

I posted last month about my 7 year old sons recent diagnosis of autoimmune (type 1) diabetes. It has been extremely stressful and heart breaking. Our lives have changed drastically and nearly all day is spent balancing a delicate tightrope of blood sugars and carb/ food intake, multiple shots...

So my therapist did confirm today that I have two parts/ aspects that she's aware of which I have also been aware of and she mentioned conconsciousness and talked about working on internal cooperation and communication. She also talked about ego states which I think are different than parts...

Just wondering if anyone has had success grounding themselves when another personality state is "in front". Sorry if my terminology is wrong. I'm not sure what it's called when you have awareness but lack control of a personality state or fragment. I ask because I seem to be able to do this...

Last weekend my son who is 7 was diagnosed with diabetes (type 1 which is a hereditary autoimmune disease). The stress is too much. I don't know how to handle it all. I have an appt. with my doctor Wed to make sure my heart's ok since I've been having pains and other symptoms. I'm sure it is I...

I find some of the images on the home page disturbing. :( Not very welcoming (IMO) to potential new members seeking support.

Sometimes I experience something I describe as floating.... but not out of body. Like when your just floating along and everything is happening and your there in your head but your not fully. Or your just getting pulled long. Like "autopilot" but different. And sometimes rather than time...

It's recently occurred to me that a few of my memories May or May Not be complete. Sounds kind of stupid when I say it since that's true with all memories, right? After living through 3 attempted rapes and one kidnapping unscathed I'm starting to be afraid that the memories are missing pieces...

I have a really hard time remembering how my week was when I go to therapy. A lot of the time I go in and the T asks, "How was your week?" and all I can say is not bad or good or I don't know or even; I think it got pretty bad for a few days but I'm not really sure what happened. So I got T2...

I was explaining to my husband that sometimes when I need to find something out in my head I ask and wait for the answer to "bubble up". To me it's different from inner dialog in that I'm not actively thinking or working toward the answer. Sometimes it comes to me as a realization sometimes kind...

I just realized recently that hunger is a trigger for me. I just thought I'd mention it since I've had ptsd for many years and never even considered it could be one. So, I figured if it was for me maybe it could be for others. And then I thought maybe others have noticed certain mundane...

I just wanted to say thank you to the founder and the moderators and supporters of this wonderful, supportive community website. It is so good to not feel alone in this and to have people who understand what we're going through. <3

I was a bit nervous about this but all went well. She was very understanding and supportive. Most importantly she agreed that we had come to an impasse with my dissociation hindering progress with neither of us knowing how to work through it. I've already had 2 sessions with my new T and am...

So last week my therapist asked me to cover each eye one at a time when I start feeling really bad inside or my brain is at odds with itself and see which one feels better uncovered and then to deep breath with the bad one covered (I think that's how she explained it). So this morning was...

The "mood" swings are so bad right now and I can't stop them. Mostly they stay in my head though and noone else has to deal with the mess. There is so much and I feel like I'm going crazy. I get reprieves of feeling normal or numb every now and then but it keeps coming back. I don't know what...

I've been seeing my therapist for over 6 months. After a few sessions we scheduled a slew of weekly appointments. Every Wed. at 1:00. So surprise surprise when I got there today and found out I don't have an appointment! Not that this is her fault or that I should blame her for this but there...

When she can, she rages in my head. She hates him and wants to hurt him. Lash out for all the pain that was caused by her abandonment. He represents everyone who failed her, did not see her value, everyone who abandoned her. Her feelings are so strong when she lets me know but I'm holding them...

I've noticed that sometimes when emotionally charged - not in control of my words - that the words are echoed in my head immediately after. I don't know if this is normal or dissociative or what to think of it. Curious as to whether others experience this and under what circumstances.

I'm feeling a little bothered by this (even though I have so much going on otherwise right now and I'm a complete emotional mess this morning). Sometimes at T sessions I have what I think is a kind of smiley part of me come out. I'm not Dx'd with anything other than PTSD and have written about...

I know nausea can be a common somataform symptom of PTSD. Do others experience it when being triggered by a memory or when getting too close to the "truth" in therapy? For instance being in denial about certain things about yourself and getting to close to these emotions or experiences causes...