Not Sure How To Title This And It's Really Not All That Important.

[7Cs]

I've been seeing my therapist for over 6 months. After a few sessions we scheduled a slew of weekly appointments. Every Wed. at 1:00. So surprise surprise when I got there today and found out I don't have an appointment! Not that this is her fault or that I should blame her for this but there have been other things I've mentioned in previous posts regarding my uncertainty continuing with her.

And rather disappointing because this was a really bad week for me and I hoped to talk through some of the issue that have come up that I don't want to deal with outside of therapy.

Anyway, a few months ago I decided to look up a trauma/ dissociative disorder T and found one in the area. I wanted a little feedback from a specialist as far as my dissociation goes since it seems to be getting in the way of trauma work. So I've seen her 2x (my current T knows and seemed fine with it until our last session). So the trauma specialist T had me make 3 appointments last time I saw her. She was very hard to get in to see in the 1st place so I'm really pleased that she's continuing to see me especially since I thought I would see her for consult only 1 or 2 times. It appears she wants to take me on as a client and she said that the 1st problem she sees and the 1st step in treating anyone with dissociation is building trust and feelings of safety in therapy. She says that she wants to start out doing that with me.

So it's weird how this all worked out.

 

[7Cs]

Uhg...
I just got an email from original T with weekly appointments through July.

I was starting to feel better about the possible switch to the new T since I had no more obligations with original T but now I'm starting to feel stressed again.

I sent her a message letting her know that we'll have to discuss how many and frequency of sessions.

It was easy moving on from my last T since we both agreed that she pretty much wasn't qualified with the trauma focused therapy I wanted to do. She had been so helpful over the years with other issues as well as teaching me coping skills for everyday life. So when it was over we just talked about what she was able to help me with and that I had made good progress and she wished me the best of luck.

This time I don't know how to end it if it comes to that and I think it will. I know that this is her job and she should be prepared for things like this to happen but I don't want to disappoint her and I feel like I'm venturing into the unknown. What if I move on and the new T doesn't work out as well as the last. I don't want to T hop.

 

[Arebas]

This sounds like a very uncomfortable position to be in. I'm sorry. Guess at this point is all about gut feeling. Do what you feel is better for you and try not to worry much about how it affects either of the therapists. The important part in therapy is always you.