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Welcome :) I can relate to a lot you said.

Yes I do. It's fear of a social interaction/relationship. I have been isolating for months, have no friends, no real support and Im afraid to meet or get to know ANYONE because who knows what I will do, start crying, running, get angry, panic attack, flashback, dissociate. (It is so very clear...

All i can do is cry and cry and say over and over please god help me and my family. I need relief

All i can say is sorry. And i think i understand

I am feeling the worst fear right now. I could barely type from shaking. I tried to workout but that didnt help. I get to this place of fear that is paralyzing and all i can do is to hide in a dark room on the floor curled up. I have for so long just wanted to feel safe. I never felt safe as...

@joeylittle thanks that really helps. This is the first time I have ever had this happen...although at the dentist and doctor I get a similar feeling. But this is just at home anytime and its so bad I cringe and try to cover my body ( like curl up)

The best way I can describe is I feel them doing that to me like that night in the hospital. And then I get real bad anxiety

@joeylittle no that's not possible. This is the first time I had that pain since that night 16 years ago in the hospital. It is a stressful time for me so that might explain it.

That got posted before I was done. So I wanted to say that the physical pain I felt that night I keep feeling now. Over and over, then I think of that night

I have a long story of abuse/trauma. Right now though one of my traumas is fighting for first place. It happened in a hospital when I was just 16. Very painful and traumatic. I don't want to get into what happened but I was screaming in pain and begging them to stop. The doctor and nurses made...

I am so sorry for your loss

I feel ya on the shitty day. I'm having one too. So sorry you had to go through that. People just don't understand sometimes. I'm all shaky and having fast hr too. I'm trying new meds and I'm just in a crappy mood and kinda spaced out.. I hope you are able to comfort yourself and feel better...

@OneWing wow you described how i feel today perfectly. Its so horrible. Ive just been having these thoughts, i guess processing the trauma. Today I had a flashback and Im just like a ghost now. I have so much to do but I cant. Im so out of it.

I did not read the article but hell yes. I would have done the same or tried. So sorry the boy will have to live with that.

Weird, off, scared, overwhelmed with responsibility, foggy, nervous,clammy, flushed, tired, full of never-ending negative thoughts and memories that wont quiet down in my head, my mouth is dry, im kinda thirsty but i dont even have motivation to get up, my head hurts, but less than my usual...

@Chava sorry you are going through this. Sounds somewhat familiar. There is really no one i trust either. I am so tired of everything. Hope things get better for us both..

I can relate so much to how you feel. Im sooo sorry you are going through this. I cant get an exame either. I was forced to when i was pregnant and the dr asked if i was abused or raped because they had to pry my legs open and i was crying. I really need to go back for a check up but idk...

There are a lot of people i didn't tell or explain..i just left.. I think that the real genuine people that i love know..because in the beginning of my diagnosis i shared with some of them...i dont keep contact anymore but i send an occasional holiday card.. I feel guilty too..i hope they...

@Fadeaway i will keep that in mind..thanks

@Neverthesame that gives me hope. Thanks so much for sharing :) @OneWing thanks so much for sharing, i relate to so much you said. I would like to have xanex for when things get real bad but my T only wants me to try one at a time to monitor side effects. So once im used to this med ( if it...

@darrenS thanks so much, that really helps :)

Its hard for me to ask for help when i need it too. I hope you get some relief soon.

Im so sorry for your loss and your struggles with ptsd. I used to be strong too..and happy. I worked, went to school, took my kids everywhere. Now im a mess. Isolated and trying to be a good mom and feeling sad that im not the same as i used to be. Mostly sad for my kids and partner. Ptsd holds...

@enough I still dont know how to do the quote thing here... but i really get when you said, that your experience is what got you from where you were before to where you are now... Im sorry youre going through this and hope you find the support you need here..

@darrenS My post was confusing. I cant express myself good when im like this. I didnt mean the meds triggered me, an ongoing problem/situation that i have to deal with triggered me. Its a major source of stress for me and it makes me feel pressured, scared, and i just want to run away from the...