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I feel there’s no escape this time of year, 24/7 emotional flashback. Abandonment depression is hitting hard and I’m beginning to flag. Last night I couldn’t move my body, talk or open my eyes, I was conscious but unable to respond to my partner. I felt very small like a child, I’m not even...

My T gave me a trauma book to read in my own time... Anytime I open the book and try to read it I feel overwhelming agitation, frustration and anger... I have to stop reading, self soothing does little, I end up getting emotionally overwhelmed to the point of suppressing boiling rage. I feel...

It appears that I may have experienced preverbal Trauma, whilst doing EMDR I make somatic motor patterns that replay the potential abuse. I can’t speak, I have no thoughts or images but the sounds I make sound like what an infant would make in distress. I’m left with the impression I was abused...

I feel so stressed and shame filled by the fact I’m not working. I feel the bar is set so high... ‘be a part-time marketer’ people recommend (my degree is in it and I’d like it) yet I can barely form a coherent sentence. I really dislike this disorder, I truly dislike its affect on cognitive...

I had a good direct conversation today with my T, we spoke about how she has noticed (as have I tbh) that ‘arousal’ is getting in the way of treatment. I consciously suppress the emotions or avoid the feelings as soon they manifest, I therefore remain frozen and looping. The traumatic memories...

I’ve been doing EMDR for a while now and I seem to be working on a part that concerns my neck. Each time I do the EMDR my neck plays out a pattern and I sort of go with it. I have no obvious memories of what this pattern is speaking but it is concerning. Anyway the main point is that I have...

I’ve been fed up of therapy for a while, I’ve lost drive and I’m apathetic towards it. My heart isn’t in it. I do the work and I engage however I’m fed up of the lack of results. The frustration is evident in the therapy room, the past few sessions the therapist looks defeatist and I leave...

I made a mistake this weekend which resulted in damaged relationships. In short over the past 2 weeks I’ve been feeling increasingly stressed due to a far higher than typical amount of triggers and pressure from others, it all escalated, I got overwhelmed and blew my lid. I accidentally damaged...

How do you manage other people’s expectations of you? E.g Friends, family or work colleagues that assume you should be able to complete certain responsibilities. I find others perceive because I’ve done something in the past then I should be able to do it again, even at short notice. However...

I’ve been managing mental illness with treatment for quite sometime and I’m not getting better, I don’t know how I’m going to be a functional member of society when treatment doesn’t seem to be freeing up chronic stress. The stress I hold in my body isn’t reducing though I’m doing all I can to...

How to deal with others disappointment when you can’t continue to partake in social activities as you have been overwhelmed? How do I keep healthy relationships with others when they are fed up with my illness? Earlier I accompanied my girlfriend, in-laws and their extended family to a...

I want to check others views on here as to whether I am being unreasonable in regards to my in-laws. Quick backstory; I had to move out of my parents home upon returning from working abroad..they didn’t want to look at the abuse that had happened within the dysfunctional family system, their...

It’s been suggested by my Trauma therapist that I may be autistic. I have looked over aspergers traits and I do see a commonality. I have been diagnosed with Complex Trauma however a lot of the symptoms do correlate with autism (e.g. sensory overwhelm, social difficulties, isolation..). I’m...

Earlier I was having quite severe tremors, I was simply overwhelmed.. I began to shake violently all over as a result of stress and then got angry afterwards.. My partner attempted to passively understand but I couldn’t help but feel offended to statements such as: ‘Your off work how come...

I’m feeling rather low and disappointed, I feel I’m progressing slowly (sometimes I’m even unsure I’m progressing at all) but I aim to be optimistic. It’s disheartening to see those around me do things so simply while for me it takes a tremendous amount of strain and even then I can only...

I’m unsure whether I feel safe with my therapist.. I don’t know if it’s emotions of fear I feel in my body rising during therapy sessions and then feeling vulnerable/at risk of being attacked (verbally or even physically) or is it actually her demeanour.. It may be a combination of both, I feel...

I’m currently undertaking EMDR and I have been for the past several weeks, I’m finding that I’m processing so much that it’s very taxing.. each morning I wake up to various emotions and physical sensations that require processing to tolerate a day. I haven’t felt I’ve ‘caught up to yesterday’...

I’m having greater and greater difficulty managing conversation that expose myself, topics that hold a correlation to why I have PTSD and my past. e.g. Why I’m unable to work, when I am going to see my family, what are my future plans.. Previously I was able to give short answers or hints so...

Hi, I’ve found for a while that I have great difficulty socialising but only recently have I truly began to witness other aspects as to why. Previously I thought it was because of social anxiety, then I was diagnosed Complex Trauma and that made sense but recently my trauma therapist made a...

I’ve had my 5th session with my latest Trauma therapist and I’m doubting the bond. There feels like a divide, I feel judged and that the therapist only wants to hear of ‘good news’. I don’t feel fully able to open up to her or be emotionally vulnerable. Moments where she’s guided me to feel my...

I'm gradually declining and becoming further depressed the longer I'm in this situation. I feel stuck in a rut with no energy or motivation, I'm living at my partners parents home and have been for the past 4 weeks or so, I'm in a new area of the country and have no additional friends up here...

I've been living with my girlfriends parents for the last 3 weeks after having to move away from my home due to confronting my parents about the CSA... It didn't go how I would have liked and I had to move away due to the number of triggers (the person who abused me still lives there, and my...

I'd like to talk about learned helplessness and how to overcome/manage it. Personally I find learned helplessness is a core issue, I feel it ties itself in with toxic shame and guilt. It can as many here may have experienced rob many aspects of one's personal growth. Career, relationships...

I'm not sure if I or this body can cope with this much longer.. I feel totally drained. My body is a mess: 90% of the time IBS flare ups, Fibro aches and weakness, total fatigue where I just want to sleep but my mind is stressed, I feel like a puffed up Michelin man! I'm getting crash after...

My biggest avoidance feature is by far relationships. I don't feel able to trust people, it's like I'm waiting for some form of abuse to manifest at any given moment. Even though I'm aware of this it doesn't make it any easier to want to make friends.. I would like people to hang with but the...