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    Mirtazapine experience?

    Just got prescribed mirtazapine mainly for sleep, but also for depression and anxiety. I’m waiting to take it until it’s my “weekend” later on in the week so I’m not too groggy for work, so I’m just wondering if anyone’s had experience with this med before and if they’re good or bad.
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    Trauma on the job

    I thought I was managing well but recently I’ve endured quite a few traumatic things on the job. I work in the social services field in a residential setting. I’ve been slammed into walls, punched in the face, spent countless nights in hospitals due to a kid’s suicidal ideation or attempt. Most...
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    Bipolar Any experience with mixed states?

    Pretty sure I’m in a mixed mania state right now. A few days ago I spent the entire day switching between sobbing and laying on the ground screaming. The next day I got an impulsive tattoo which I already regret. I’ve gine from feeling the irritable parts of mania while also feeling depressed...
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    Stress and triggers in the social service field

    I’ve been working a new job for around 3 months. The burnout is starting to sink in already. I work with kids in the foster care system. There are a lot of times that I love my job, but there have also been many triggering moments that I have to mask when I’m around the kids. Lately I don’t...
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    EMDR And Attachment To Therapist

    I have been with my t coming up on one year now. I feel like up until recently I was just kind of flailing around in therapy, touching down on bits and pieces of trauma but never really digging into any of them too much. We have since taken a break from trauma stuff to work on resourcing. I have...
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    can’t get out of this low

    I’m stuck and I can’t find my way out. Hit a low a few weeks ago, lots of suicidal ideation. It let up for a few days and I thought the slump was temporary. But I’m back to this feeling. Woke up a couple days ago and immediately started sobbing. Today feels so dark. So empty. Spent lots of it so...
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    bad dreams about your therapist?

    I had a dream about my therapist the other night. In the dream she set up an appointment at a random location and didn’t show up, and didn’t respond to my inquiries as to why. Later in the dream I found out that she contacted all of my colleagues and told them about my diagnoses and medications...
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    Anyone Have Experience With Buspirone/Buspar?

    I recently started Buspirone for generalized anxiety/panic attacks. Does anyone have experience with this? How does it work for you? I haven’t noticed much difference yet, it’s been about a week and a half so I’m not sure if it’s too soon to tell. My pdoc said that some of her patients say...
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    feeling dumb and embarrassed in therapy

    I can’t stop feeling incredibly dumb and embarrassed by everything I say in therapy. I get so nervous and flustered half the time that I feel like I’m just babbling, not speaking in complete sentences and not saying what I actually want to get across. Then I feel like my therapist must see me...
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    it hasn’t been this bad in a while

    Deep depression has been settling in recently. I’m bipolar, type 2 so I spend most of my time feeling dysthymic, which is bearable. Then I have my fun hypomanic episodes before crashing into a rough depression. I started mood stabilizers somewhat recently, which seemed to help a little. But...
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    Childhood Could this be a dissociated or repressed memory?

    Hi all, I posted this in my diary but wanted to post it to a forum in hopes of receiving some more feedback. I apologize as it may be a bit of a lengthy post... To start, I used to have this recurring nightmare as a kid. The content of the nightmare itself wasn’t all that scary, but I’d get...
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    I think I’m getting attached to my t

    So. The title pretty much explains it. I think, after 7 months in therapy, I’m starting to get attached to my t. I understand that this is probably normal, given all of the vulnerability and openness that’s supposed to happen in therapy, but I can’t help but feel terrified. I spent so long in...
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    any experience with lamictal side effects?

    Hi everyone. So, in another thread the other day I posted about my new bipolar type 2 diagnosis. I got prescribed lamictal and I'm on a very small dose for now, slowly working my way up. I've only had 2 doses so far but my body feels absolutely awful. I can't tell if I just happen to be getting...
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    Bipolar New bipolar diagnosis

    So, I just returned from an intake appointment with a nurse practitioner. She confirmed what I’ve suspected/what’s been suggested for a while now: I have bipolar disorder, type 2. Even though I pretty much knew it already it’s still kind of a weird feeling to get this news. It feels like...
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    struggling with self harm after being clean for a while

    Hi all, apologies as this is about to be a pretty long post.. I've really been struggling with self harm lately. A little bit of history... I started self harming (by way of cutting myself; I probably self harmed in other ways before that but less obvious) when I was around 13-14 years old. By...
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    Finally able to move forward in therapy

    Hi, I just wanted to share a bit of good therapy news. I’ve been in therapy about 6-7 months now and while I could tell from the beginning that my therapist was a good one, there have been some hiccups along the way. I think it was our second or third session together that I just spilled all...
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    Childhood Childhood anxiety, auditory hallucinations, and recurring nightmares

    Since starting therapy about 6 months ago I’ve been remembering a lot of strange symptoms I had during childhood. I’m not really sure what to make of any of it. I’m wondering if any of these things could possible point toward some repressed trauma. As i’m Setting out to type this i’m realizing...
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    Uncomfortable with something my t said

    I almost feel a little silly posting about this since it’s such a little thing, but last session my therapist used a term that made me uncomfortable. Long story short: I’m gay, we were talking about a topic related to my sexuality, and at one point she referred to it as my “lifestyle”. It...
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    Feeling stuck in therapy

    Hi! This might be a lot, so apologies in advance. I’m having a rough time with therapy and it’s got me feeling pretty frustrated. I’ve been in therapy before, back when I was in high school and didn’t really want to be in therapy, and again once or twice in college when I never stayed with a...
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    I got a job!

    I'm still pretty new here, but I wanted to come share the news anyway! I was unemployed and out of school for nearly 5 months after I had the big meltdown that led to me seeking therapy again/getting a ptsd diagnosis. Every time I tried to set up interviews and move forward, I'd get huge panic...
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    Sufferer Newly diagnosed ptsd, emdr, not feeling valid

    Hi! I have been reading forums on here for a few months since starting therapy again and decided to join in. About three months ago I began therapy again due to a huge, seemingly out-of-nowhere mental breakdown where I spent nearly two weeks in bed having daily panic attacks, crying, and being...
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