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    Doing My Best At Pushing T Away

    I've been going through some difficult time this past few days, my t has been really kind and giving me all the support I need. Now, here's a sad story of my life: the kinder you are to me the horrible I will be to you. I know that doesn't sound good, but I find that every time I'm going through...
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    Last Day At Work

    Today is my last day with my current employer, I have mixed feelings about leaving. I generally don't do well with change, I like things to remain the same. I'm now struggling to go in to the office building to get my belongings, everyone would be wanting to say goodbye. They were all so good...
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    Panic Attacks From My Mothers Calls To Redeem My Abuser

    I will try to explain what I am going through briefly, my story is that I was sexually abused and a few years ago I decided to tell my parents about it. my mother said: if it's no longer happening then there's nothing to discuss, my father asked me why I allowed the abuser to abuse me. This was...
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    New Meds Making Me Feel Like I'm Losing My Mind

    I have been put on new meds from yesterday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I feel a little out of of space, like I'm not my normal self. Unaware of my surroundings, I have a little to care about. I emailed my doc and she said I should give the meds a week and I will get used to it. I have...
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    Voices Raised, T Ticked Off And I Am Confused

    I have been going through some hard time, I have a lot of things going on at the moment. I am changing jobs, and moving to another province, I am also back at school this year. Everything is happening so fast and at the same time. I have been in a really dark place, found myself emailing my T...
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    Anxious About Moving Back To My Home Town

    I haven't posted on this forum in a very long time, things were going ok. I am still in therapy even though I have reduced the number of sessions I do per month. I have been in this province for just over 13 months and I think it's time I moved back to my home town. I have managed to secure a...
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    What Did I Think I Was Doing

    I haven't been home in 9 months, so I decided I should go visit my mother and everyone else at home but I think I wasn't ready for it. I only stayed one night and I'm in a very bad place. Every wall, window and door in that house knows my pain. It wasn't long when everything started coming...
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    Too Scared To Have T Session Today

    After last week's screaming match with t, I'm not sure if I'm ready to go back. I have a booked session today and for the life of me I'm just too scared to talk to her today. I thought by today I would have been over what happened last week but I'm not. I feel like sending her an email and just...
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    T Yelled At Me

    It's been a while since I've been online, as most of you know that I've moved to a new province early this year and things have been challenging. I still talk to my t over the phone and email because I'm not ready to start with a new t. This week I've been in a bad space and I think I've pushed...
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    Call For Help Before Exams

    I'm in my home town and staying with my boyfriend, the main reason I'm here is that I have exams in a few days and I thought being in a familiar place would help me concentrate better. Last night things went to the left with him, I had kept having images of my abuser so I decided to let myself...
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    Symptoms Getting Worse

    The past few weeks things have been really bad. My symptoms are getting worse and I do not have anyone around here. I have been in an emergency room a couple of times. On Tuesday I dessociated during my phone session with my t and it was really bad. It took her a while to bring me back. This...
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    T Trying To Transfer Me... Panic Attack

    I just had a phone session with my t, and it sounded like she was trying to transfer me to another t. I just stopped talking and hung up the phone. It feels like I am having a panic attack. I am in tears and shaking, I wish I had someone near but I am all on my own. She is busy calling but I...
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    Childish Tantrums

    Do you ever find yourself throwing tantrums in therapy? I get to be so childish around my t, throwing tantrums, sulking and etc. Does this happen to anyone else and how do you deal with it? I find it embarrassing :(
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    Back Online

    I have been away for about 3months, relocating was not easy. I am still struggling and some days I wish I could go back, but I have signed a binding contract with my current employer. I am still in therapy, having phone sessions with my therapist every week excluding this week because I was...
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    Attachment Issues

    I am really attached to my therapist and I don't know how to let go. I talk to her daily, I think about her everyday. How should I deal with this? How do I get over her? I haven't seen her in 3 weeks and I miss her so bad. How did I get myself into this? I don't think it is healthy
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    2013's Challenges... Share Your Story

    This year has been the hardest ever, but I made it. So I thought we could start a chat where we all think back of this year's greatest challenges and how we made it through. I'd like to hear your stories
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    I'm So Not Ok Right Now

    I am falling apart because I have said my goodbyes to my t today. Even though she told me it is not forever and that she will see me again and she will be in touch. I think I am having a panic attack. She gave me a book she singed with a note inside and asked me for a hug. It made me feel...
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    Tomorrow Is My Last Session With T

    I have accepted the job in another province and I am off to starting a new life with new people. I am happy but I am also sad that I will be seeing my t for the last time tomorrow. I got her a thank you card and I wrote a few words of appreciation. I am not sure how the session will go...
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    Feeling Alone

    I got the job I had applied for in a different province. They called me back today to make an offer and it was a good one. I was happy about this until I told my partner and his reaction is really stressing me. He said if I took the job then it will be the end of us and I will never see him...
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    Over Analyzing T's Question

    I had my session on Monday and I was able to open up to my t about the sexual relationship I had with my previous t. For the first time ever I was able to tell someone about it and how the previous t left me shuttered when she told me we had to stop seeing each other. The other reason I had to...
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    How Do You Express Anger?

    I find I am struggling with expressing anger in a manner that is acceptable. Generally when angry I would tell a person provoking that I am getting angry, I will do this in a polite manner and with a smile on my face so most people do not get it. I am not good with verbalizing things, so I do...
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    My First Eye Contact With My T

    From the title you can already tell I had a great session today. I was able to be open and honest to her about what went down between me and my previous therapist. I was also able to tell her about something she once did that made me feel like she was angry with me. However I was not able to...
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    Biggest Mistake Tdoc Ever Made

    I love my therapist and we get each other. I one day asked her to help me confront my abuser and she agreed. So 10minutes into the session I took my phone and called him, told him that I can still remember what he did. I was obviously scared and could not tell him everything I wanted to. After...
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    The Relationship Between Mom, The Abuser And Me

    So my mom is still pretending nothing happened between me and the abuser. She knows it all, I even sat her down and told her what happened but she still pretends nothing happened and wants me to also pretend. To cut the long story short, he is in hospital and mom keeps calling me to go visit...
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    To Buy Or Not To Buy Tdoc A Christmas Gift?

    What are your thoughts about buying a Christmas gift for your t?
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