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I will respond back soon. Week has been rough and haven't been concentrating/thinking too well. Trying to relax a lot in between work and sleep. I have been reading all the new opinions and views and I appreciate everyone's feedback which is helping me see where she may have been coming from. (I...

Thank you for all of the support everyone. It is so nice being validated. I think I am going to take the easy road and just text him about it being over. That way I don't have to hear his voice or how he reacts. I can leave my phone on silent and not check it. Maybe not the best method, but I...

That's it. I've made up my mind. I need to stop this. I have a best friend who is not good with arguments and can't discuss things. He gets irritated and goes into making everything into how I am acting wrong and over reacting. I mean, yes, there are sometimes where he isn't quite so bad, but I...

I think that is what she was trying to explain to me. And I agree with what you said about that is doesn't make it right. I know my therapist does not mean it that it was the right thing to do though. I have a feeling this is what happened with my mum and maybe with my brothers. I think also...

So my therapist is trying to get me to accept this mentality that people only have one choice in the moment. What they decide to do. Yes, they always have other choices, but the one they end up doing is done because they have no other choice. She would hold out a cell phone and say, pick a...

That first night, I laid there next to my mum in her bed, tears falling down my cheeks. Just thinking of my mum seeing my dad just collapsing and waiting for help to come it keeps haunting me. It was all I could think about those first 48 hours, what kept repeating in my head. As days go by, I...

I get feelings like this. I have very few visual flashbacks, but can relate with remembering memories. Sometimes I feel like something is trying to come up. This is usually when I am thinking of things and starting to feel emotional because of it. I start to dissociate (I feel floaty) and try...

I know that there are different levels for dissociation, like everyone has mentioned. I have had times where I can move, but my brain is super fuzzy and I can't think or concentrate and I feel like I am floating, or in a fog. There are times when my body feels heavy and I feel very tired...

I am interested in seeing this movie, and from what you wrote, it makes me want to see it even more! I have heard the Demi Lovato song from the movie called "Let it Go". This is the official video here: I love it because, to me, it is about letting your emotions show and not being afraid to...

I am sorry to hear how your relatives have been reacting. It sounds very frustrating. I agree with scout that maybe having a specified time to talk to her about it. I have tried printing stuff from offline that explains things to show and read when I have tried to get my friends to understand...

I just saw the movie today, oh my gosh loved it! I tend to like movies a lot that stir emotions in me, maybe because it is safer to feel them in reaction to a movie than something happening in real life. And I tend to feel numb a lot, so it is also nice to feel things in a safe way. I think I...

I do trust my therapist so far. I really like her. I have already told her something I have never told anyone else before because it was scary for me to say outloud. And I love how what I say to her, just seems to make sense, or she knows how to respond to it. She doesn't make me feel crazy or...

WoW! Thank you for sharing your experience! It actually makes me feel a LOT better about everything because I felt like such a failure. D: I am sorry what you went through that. That makes me angry that you got in trouble for yelling at someone that touched you. If it is a trigger for you (even...

I can relate to getting headaches after blocking emotions. I am usually numb/dissociated most of the time. I know how my emotions started for me. I was ready and couldn't hold back anymore, it had built up. Since I was ready to change, I started to face it and let myself feel all the pain...

I actually feel a bit better after my appointment this morning. She read over my list of memories and around what ages they are from. (which was basically split between before junior high (memory very jumbled from then, and I have the least memories of this time), junior high, high school, and...

That is correct.

The program I went to focuses also on the underlying issues and traumas. That is how it is different from any other program out there. You pretty much talk about trauma all day and they are supposed to help you get through that and teach you how to handle it and urges to self-injure. Also, I...

So now I am in therapy with my new trauma therapist. She keeps asking if anything new comes up in between sessions. The answer is always no. I told her I feel shut down and I think that is why. I went back into this autopilot, dissocaited haze. She told me a session ago that she doesn't think...

I have been so frustrated lately because I finally have a great trauma therapist that I understands me, but new memories haven't been coming up. (Any suggestions on how to help this along, or where to go from here, please.) I know when they stopped. I went to a month long residential treatment...

I can relate to worrying about behaving like an abuser. My dad was very angry all the time and yelled and exploded over little things. I know there were times I yelled back and provoked him more because I am very head strong and he would piss me off. Outside of the home I was able to stay this...

The other day I was triggered by a delivery person who had come back to my house after he accidentally delivered extra food that was for another order. When he started pounding on the front door, I started feeling super scared. He was outside my house for 5-10 minutes and started pounding louder...

Last night at work, I had two triggers. :( The first was not as bad, it was with a fellow associate that can get cranky and take it out on others. I had borrowed her printer and brought it to the backroom to use for a few. (I didn't see her and knew she was the one using it. I had passed by...

I am so sorry the therapist did this. It definitely sounds like they are not experienced the way they should be to treat PTSD/trauma. You did nothing wrong. A good therapist will recognize what is going on and help you get through it. I have also had my fair share of bad therapists. I was...

That is awesome :) Poetry helps me out, too. For me, I have to feel in the mood to write, but when I have, I have felt much better afterwords. I use a lot of metaphors/imagery and that helps me explain what I am feeling when I can't really put it into regular talking words. I, too, encourage...

Thank you everyone for your feedback. :) It took me a while before I could come back and respond because I was getting upset reading the responses, but I did ask everyone for their honesty. So thank you.