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Well, I went to the Psychiatrist yesterday. Before that, I was having this huge breakdown. Probably like..a really, really intense panic attack. I'm not even sure if I can pin point the reason. Total dread. It was almost as if I was like an animal in shock, I just sat there, frozen, weeping and...

Yes...it's horrid. I thought I was alone.

Guys, guys! I did them! I had to pay 200 dollars, but I did them! I even had to go to the college to get some financial stuff sorted out. I cried pretty much any time I wasn't in front of other people, it was really hard, but I did it. I'm proud of myself. I guess evasion actually helped me...

Last night, I had this epiphany that hit me like a truck. I've known for a bit that the abuse I've endured for a long time has convinced me that I was "unworthy of love" if I messed up in any way. I was always striving for perfect and nothing less, and it crushed me when the PTSD and Depression...

I'm super bad about self care at times. I've been getting better about it lately. I feel gross when I don't brush my teeth for a day or shower for a few, but I'm improving. That's all that matters I suppose. Good job on the checklist.

I'll answer questions, sure. If you want my email I'd be happy to give it to you.

I was notified the other day that, after three months or so of not working, I'll be working this weekend to cover some coworkers. Its like the anxiety almost went into hibernation because of how good I was at avoiding stressors. BOOM. I feel it coursing through my veins, all over again. Suddenly...

I always figured undeserving fell under worthlessness, but that's just me. I'd say worthlessness and self-loathing. Hope everything is coming along well.

What a predicament. It seems that it would be really stressful to fly over and deal with chemical exposure. I'm sure that if you decided not to go, your son would understand even though it would be sad. From what you've said, you've been there for him all along, a great mother! Listening to your...

Oddly enough I started having recurring nightmares at an extremely young age. I remember having them when I was 3 or 4. I also have memories of my own behavior that suggest my traumas go back farther than I thought (it's cumulative for me). They've gotten worse as I've gotten older. More...

I'm sorry you lost your precious kitty. I used to have a cat named Frank. He was blind, fat, and loved eating cardboard. I loved him. Anyway, in my situation, I have nightmares that aren't related to my trauma itself. All the time. Almost all of which involve life or death situations, whether it...

I really like that. So vibrant and expressive. :)

A blessing and a curse it seems, @darrenS. I know how that goes. I've noticed that for my art, it makes drawing human figures a lot easier. Remembering people in the poses I want to draw makes it so I don't often need a reference. Hyperthymesia is an incredible phenomenon...

Thanks all, your ideas help. I cant remember who originally told me about the breathing exercises to help snap out of a panic attack, but I did those on the bus today going to my T appointment. It did help, regulating my breathing distracted me enough in itself I wasn't having negative thoughts...

I've been feeling similar. These past few nights I've been afraid to go to sleep and of the dark, so I've been leaving the light on. The moment I hear one of "my" sounds I do this weird triple take motion and can't decide what to do. I freeze, most times, then make my decision... Kinda. I do...

I have been working as a cashier at a produce market for nearly 2 years now. I haven't received a raise, and I'm stuck at minimum wage. I'm almost positive it's because Im a woman, seen as as a hazard (I was told that) , and thus can't do closing procedures, or run the store alone. It pisses...

Awww :hug:

@holdenmonty I can completely relate. It does feel like it has disappeared when things have gotten better, until it smacks you in the face again. I hope you are getting the help you need now to conquer your struggles. So the journey begins, eh? I'm sure it'll improve. News! I'm having a...

Thank you @BlueAmber! Those exercises help. :)

Hi Andreas! Nice to meet you. :) My anxiety gets worse when I have coffee or other heavily caffeinated things. You might be referring to heart palpitations? If so, I think I have them too. It's like a sudden, irregular beat and sometimes it continues for a short while longer. They used to freak...

La la la, doing taxes. Everything is fine! Okay, box b? I have that value.. Went through and it all went well. But the moment I couldn't find an exact value for one of my donations and expenses, I started to panic. Instead of it being a refund, it was a bill. Had to set it aside. Okay, I'm not...

Oh my god...me too. Anything that represents abandonment, in my mind, really makes me sad. Often times when my SO leaves for his reserves weekends, or his annual tour, I start to panic. The "what if he never came back" thoughts. Looking at the uniform makes me think of it, too. I have a couple...

@Lewa It's pretty incredible, despite its causes. My fiance is always commenting how he can't smell or hear something but I'm constantly reacting to things I'm picking up on. My classic reaction is the "deer in headlights" pose and expression..

Thank you :) also, I need to add. Albatrosses are amazing birds.

I feel silly now, but I think I finally get it. A trigger is a thing, and the thing triggers (causes) a "flashback". Is that right? Different from stressors. I think I'm understanding. I suppose I felt confused in my own state because of my own misconception about what a flashback is. People...