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Apparently your brain knew what was going on with that email dream! What a nice surprise with the wood. Part of me is liking that wood chopping fairy idea, but probably not. Hooray for chopped wood, right? That's like waking up to breakfast in bed. Sorry again you had to go through that. I...

Sometimes things seem like they're not getting better when chaos is going on around us. But you're learning. Take a deep breath. It's okay to feel angry and feel like it won't get better. We can't predict the future, but we can most definitely pave a path for ourselves. At the end of the day...

@FridayJones Thanks for the reference. I'm new and haven't looked through the archive stuff. Though reading through his explanation, I just can't identify with it. Like, I know I'm being taken back to something, but now I'm confused and don't want to use any terminology. I can't tell the...

I was thinking about triggers earlier. As with any word, there can be different meanings to different people. I wanted to take a "thought inventory", if you will. For me, I suppose I'm still figuring out what these terms mean to me. I have things that get the ball rolling on upsetting thought...

Hooray, welcome to the forum. :) I'm sure you'll find it as therapeutic as we do. Lots of threads, lots of venting, questions, whatever. It all helps. Glad you joined!

I was searching for a photo in my giant folder and found this one. It's a scene from the movie Ponyo. Ponyo is one of my favorite movies by Hayao Miyazaki. The artistic capability of himself and his crew is incredible. The movie was based on the Little Mermaid, just with a twist. The main...

@sun seeker And the plot thickens! I am 19 and live with her. That's exactly why I have to stay on her good side. I haven't gotten away yet, I still live in this minefield of an apartment. I would love to leave, but I don't have the means, or seemingly the mental strength, to survive just yet.

Thanks so much @sun seeker. I like that, getting water out of a stone... I'm glad someone else has had the same experience. My therapist has told me that I might need to accept that it will never happen. I can want it, but just have to accept that I can't make people do anything. It'll hurt a...

My dad says to me, "If 'if' was a fifth, we'd all be drunk." and I like it. It's true. It's so hard to wonder about all the possibilities as they're endless. The only thing we can do is come to peace about it. I really think that it's possible for every one of us here, no matter the trauma, to...

@sun seeker I suppose it's both, but more so the trauma. I keep thinking that I'm either making it up or playing it out to be worse than it is. I doubt the trauma because I think I'm "overreacting" or working myself up for nothing. However, that's also what I've been told for years - get over...

Hey guys. Thanks for your replies. To clarify I'll give a few details. I was very recently diagnosed with PTSD and because I've struggled with keeping a good, open relationship with my mom, I've been trying to keep her in the loop. Trying to keep that friendship going, I suppose. Though that's...

Thank you. Just the other day one of my friends tried to kill himself. I hadnt talked to him in a long time and my reaction to it was probably one that he wouldnt expect. I was probably the last person on his mind, but I'm over here typing a letter to him to tell him I'm there for him and we...

So, I know I was diagnoses with PTSD. I know that for a long time I've struggled and when the triggers are there, I really react. I've just been trying to avoid them I guess. The other day I saw a dad trying to discipline his little girl by threatening to leave her in the park. He even got in...

I like them a lot. I don't want to say they're my escape, but they are. I fear a lot of the world and ways I feel in control are through them, in a way. I really dislike shooting games like CoD, but I can handle Halo. Maybe its shooting people vs aliens? I dont know. World of Warcraft has...

My parents' marriage was rocky and the divorce was hell. I remember having to move and go to a new school the next year and I think I was 10. All throughout elementary school I did performance s in music or plays. I wasnt afraid before the divorce and a bunch of trauma. But after, i remember it...

I enjoy creating. I tend to obsess over tiny details to make them right, even though I often am never fully satisfied with what I create. I tried digital painting, but I enjoy the sounds, feeling and mess of traditional painting and drawing. I feel it helps open my mind a little instead of...

Insomnia sure does wonders for empiphanies huh? Im glad you came to that realization. Quite a doozy. Hopefully now that you have that in mind, it'll ease healing to a degree.

Im employed as a cashier, and the season has been really slow lately so I havent worked for a while. But during the summer, I saw all sorts of people. Heavy people, light people, cheetah print pants, slit t shirts. Whatever it was, I saw it. I was so concerned with making everyone have a great...

I guess I started to feel it coming on again tonight. I notice something, this time a small bump on the roof of my mouth, and suddenly I think I could have cancer, or AIDS or whatever - you name it. Google is not my friend. I get really on edge and just notice every flipping thing that's going...

Omg me too. Not with the pain, but other things I've noticed. They're probably nothing but even just thinking about going to the Dr. for an exam makes me sweat bullets and cling to my chair. Really scary to me too. I've heard many Gyno's are trained to deal with abuse victims and you can look...

Oh I'm glad. Yeah, it's hard to even think about going outside. I saw another post of yours saying you took out your little one! It's sure stressful, but you did do it. That is progress. Keep doing those baby steps. Back to the broken leg thing - The calm, happy you is there always (on the...

Thank you all so much! I was lucky and I really like the first therapist I was paired up with. It's helped a lot just to even voice any of my concerns to her. It's hard to express some emotions, or even just admit that it's not all my responsibility. Progress is thankfully slow and steady. I do...

Imagine being an athlete and breaking your leg. You really needed that leg for your career and your whole life. Of course you're going to be devastated when your lifestyle has to completely change, but that doesn't mean who you are, inside, not just your body, has disappeared. It's still there...

There are always going to be bad days in recovery, and things can always get better. With the right 'ingredients', a good therapist, meds, even lifestyle, I have immense hope that things can and will turn around for you. Persistence is really important here. We're here for you in the whole...

I've never been in this exact situation, but I can understand to a degree. I flunked out of school - I was on financial aid and had everything paid for by the state, and a scholarship I won. But I flunked due to, at the time, undiagnosed PTSD and major depression. I beat myself up saying that I...