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Yes it was a very low point in my life. When I was in the hospital had been 3 weeks after I got out of the hospital for a breakdown from years of abuse. I was desperate to leave with the kids. So when he got awarded custody of the kids it was a slap in the face. He had the kids from sept - dec...

Today is a super hard day for me. I have had 2 panic attacks just need to get through the rest of the day. i will share why it is so hard for me. It starts on Sept 18,2003 I had been in the hospital to get things sorted as I was leaving my abusive ex and had told my Dr what was going on. My ex...

I wish I could be ok with death but I am not. I wish I could snub my nose at it but I cant. Many say that because i came out of my coma on Halloween I should have the view that I in a way was laughing at death by not dying. I will get upset and tell them how dare they tell me to celebrate. I...

I have spent this month reflecting on my past. I am hoping to open a discussion on a couple topics which will be clear at the end. I share this in hopes of helping someone My history I have had many traumas in my life starting at the age of 2. At age 2 I was burned by coffee in an accident and...

I have been waiting on an update from my brother on where I can see her. For now she is in the emergency room. I want to be there for my mom and I will be but this is so hard for me right now . I have been emotionally empty so to speak for a long time and with this already a rough time for me I...

October is always a rough month for me. It has been for the past 10 years soon to be 11. Well today I got some news about my mom that is triggering me more then usual. She has been struggling with her own mental illness, has been in and out of hospital for as long as I can remember. Today was...

Today was a good day. I had a Therapist appointment...yes my Dr works on Sunday. Jellybean was awesome she laid quietly next to me on the bus,train, waiting room and in my dr's personal office. She got to wear her new vest.I may have to get it adjust a bit as it is slightly too big for her. She...

I hate when I have a nightmare and can not wake up no matter what I do. Last night was horrible I am so exhausted. In my nightmare the doorbell rang and for some reason I got a bad feeling so I went upstairs to look out the window to see who it was. What I saw freaked me out it was 7 guys with...

For a time we were meeting at the police station that was close to my house however with my mobility issues it was difficult in the winter as I rely on public transportation. I know my letter will fall on deaf ears BUT i did and submitted it to my lawyer to show how I am attempting to work with...

My ex is a real winner. I was with him for 8 years and we had 3 kids together. He will never take ownership for what he has done. He will not admit he ripped the phone out of the wall, tried to take the kids older kids away from when i was pregnant with our youngest, he pulled me off of him by...

Sadly he wont he is the type of man who does not forgive nor forgets hell he still has a grudge against his mom for a time when he was reunited with her and she would not loan him a clock radio. He was 17 at the time and now is 50. For him it is all about being in complete control

Paul. I want to start off this letter saying I apologize for reacting the way I did on Friday. I was upset that you were not open to a suggestion I had made that was due to fears you had. You allowed fear to close your mind to a suggestion that might help our son. All I want to do is to work...

It is hard and he is a huge trigger for me unlike my other abuser and rapist who I do not have to see . Seeing my ex hubby i feel like i am being victimized over and over

they do not want to be with him but they have to be. I got sick and CPS placed them with my ex after telling me i was a liar about the abuse.

Yes it is hard situation to be in. Yes my ex rants to me often and he is always trying to lie to the boys. I am so grateful he was not arounf for those most important years where they are most impressionable. He only came back into their lives just over 2 years ago he disappeared for 5 years but...

I agree but my ex refuses to see this which is sad. He is ruining his relationship with his kids

I got a call from my ex which upset me a great deal. He was very abusive and make several false allegations. He called me to tell me that our son was suspended from school for being high with 2 other kids(had to call school for details.) He got abusive right after I suggested our son stay with...

oh I am fighting back what I am doing is going to get Jellybean certified or as the government says qualified at a non ADI place then i have something . I mean really there are so many places where I can work with a trainer in the US and get her certified. I do visit LA every 4 months so I can...

oh i am trying but no one on the ADI list is willing to help me sadly which is frustrating. I am not giving up I have written a letter to my member of Parliament because i am not giving up

thank you guys and yes I have tried contacting like what feels like everyone on the list for ADI and keep getting turned down. I saw one facility that helps with owner training but when I checked their website it was for veterans only. I am on disability . A few places when i called told me yes...

Ok this is both PTSD and Service Dog related. I am shaking my head as i try to figure out what to do. I live in Canada were the laws and regulations with Service Dogs are way more stricter then the US as well each province is different so it is confusing. About over a year ago I started to...

Today was not a good day for both Jellybean or myself. I am asking myself am I pushing her to hard as well as myself. I know both of us are going to have bad days. It is still embarrassing. I have been on disability for 8 years. I have been wanting to return to work for awhile now so i finally...

I hear you on not wanting the nightmares to return. For me i have to be careful with what meds I take as i am super sensitive. I am working with my drs and therapist to see what works. I need to talk to the dog trainer i am working with to see how to train my PTSD / mobility dog in training to...

no worries I understand. I get mad at the websites out there that promote people lying their pets are Service dogs. It makes it hard for us who actually have Service Dogs . Some people just do not get it takes a lot of time to train our dog. All we can do is educate either by telling people or...

yes that is my girl :)