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    Constant fear of lying and doubting myself

    I'm glad you shared! I too have a terrible memory but I have PTSD for a reason and was able to put pieces of puzzled memories of my trauma together through therapy to see a clear enough picture. I also have specific memories and flashbacks I remember. It's been a 5 years now that I've been...
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    Feeling alone and wanting to isolate

    @seekjoydaily thank you for your response. I'm currently working with my T weekly since this dive into depression started for me recently. Yes I'm stable on my meds too. I also made a plan with my sponsor so I will be going to meeting every other night that week. I am rarely alone in my life, a...
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    Feeling alone and wanting to isolate

    Thank you, this is really helpful. I do have some clean time in and have a great support network. I also see a therapist regularly, more when I'm feeling this way. I love the idea of using alone time for my more of a healing time. Thank you, your suggestions are helpful. I should have a plan...
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    Feeling alone and wanting to isolate

    I'm bipolar but my biggest struggles are with depression lately. All I am thinking about is having an entire week to seriously isolate soon, no one will be home but me. But I'm also an addict and alcohol so isolating is not good for me. I have so many tools to help me not fall into this...
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    The terminally ill abusive parent - compassion or condemnation?

    I really heard what you wrote. I too want to be free. Working on amends but I’m still expecting it too from my abusers so I am setting myself up. I needed to hear this today, thanks.
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    Wrap facilitator!!!!!!!!

    Congratulations! That's really exciting
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    I think my sister is emotionally and verbally abusive

    This I like. Thank you!
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    I think my sister is emotionally and verbally abusive

    I am having a lot of trouble with my sister lately. I love her dearly but she doesn't understand why I take medication for my bipolar, she often says things like, this is why I loved my therapist for not labeling me with bipolar or anything because I didn't want a label and I didn't want to have...
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    Therapy for childhood abuse

    I know it's not EMDR because that's what I did and it didn't look anything like that but maybe it's his way of doing talk therapy. It does seem like he wants to desensitize you from the words. I know I have only ever spoken the words outloud to one person that I trusted fully. Even with my T I...
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    Therapy for childhood abuse

    So sorry you went through what you went through. I would be uncomfortable with those kinds of questions too because I do not have much memories of my childhood or the abuse. My body knows and flashbacks tell me however my T (therapist) helps me to talk about things I feel and images I see in my...
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    Hydroxyzine - is there an alternative?

    Hello, I get panic attacks still at times and when there are weeks, used to be months, where I will have the same flashback every day and those are the times I dont sleep or eat well. I have found Hydroxyzine to be very helpful. I am in recovery so I dont take narcotics and this is the safest...
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    Confused And Even More Depressed Because Of It

    Maybe a month now my depression has been getting worse again. I'm sure seasonal depression contributes to that. I've been crying myself to sleep some nights. I've found myself imagining myself now feeling embraced in my abusers arms like I once felt when I was a child. Just being held by them...
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    Great Now Is My Boss A Trigger Too?

    I'm sorry freedom fighter. Hugs.
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    Sufferer Ay, So I'm Not Great At Intros

    Hello, nice to meet you. I have always found the forum helping me. Good your here too. Hugs if you accept.
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    Fire Drill

    how did you do? Drills put me on high alert for the rest of the day, even tho they were just practice, is there anything that you can do that can help you the rest of the day? Meditations, gym class maybe, or a favorite teacher you can talk to, or why not the school counselor? Good luck, hugs if...
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    First Memory Dream Followed By First Flashback

    I want to say I'm truly sorry your having to deal with all of this. My T would always remind me that my mind won't remember anything that I can't process. I don't know though, I think it's different for everyone. My flashbacks came over two years time. I had lots of therapy during those two...
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    Flash Cards

    Yes she did, thank you, I've been coping okay, just trying not to obsess over it. Getting it out helps.
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    Flash Cards

    It's like flash cards showing me images in my mind. After I had neuro feedback where she tapped into my right side of my brain, I was a disaster. I am in recovery of drugs and the first thing I did was seek out a script. I got one somehow and used for two days and stopped. What happened, what...
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    Body Memory

    great advice everyone! Wow thank you so much. I am feeling better about this. I should ask about that statement that was made about confirming any abuse with out me remembering it for sure, appreciate all the advice. I keep forgetting that this is work too, just like my full time job, just like...
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    Body Memory

    Last two weeks I've been going to neuro feedback therapy along with my other therapy. I'm also in recovery coming back from a drug relapse a week ago. I had two nightmares last two nights. I don't know where to post this so I'm posting under discussion. I am not sure what I'm even looking for...
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    Body Memories Again

    I'm sitting at work feeling stuck in memories, I was triggered and next thing you know I'm frozen feeling like I'm bring raped all over again as a child and these memories are just stuck in my mind, I can't escape them and I'm really trying hard to not use.
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    Up To Fourth Time This Year Abusing Scripts

    thank you, good helpful points and advice here for me.
  23. J

    Up To Fourth Time This Year Abusing Scripts

    if i just didn't have these flashes of them and the tent and feel angry. I know how to ground. I just need to focus.
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    Up To Fourth Time This Year Abusing Scripts

    im feeling like maybe I should reach out again. My T had to reschedule but does not have any openings until my next scheduled meet with her so its okay, i have other support. I just feel like it's hard to not use a substance to solve my problems, I know better. Just struggling a bit today. Just...
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    Up To Fourth Time This Year Abusing Scripts

    I spoke up at the meeting, talked about my drug abuse, I think the more I go, the more real it gets for me and hopefully it's going to help me with the feeling and fears of wanting to use to not feel anything.
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