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I'm in such a state of disarray. It's like I just can't handle these last few days of regular everyday actions. Just sitting here at work is feeling like too much for me to handle and I can't take the day off or anything because there is just way too high a demand of output for the next few...

I think my best bet would be to piece my experiences that led to my trauma. I've been feeling so much pain and anger lately that I need to get it out and the trauma diaries is something I hadn't tried yet so here it goes... It hurts when I hear jazz music because one of the first time we made...

This topic came up during a discussion with a friend. I was asked if I ever get upset over how much I was forced to grow and change due to my trauma. My answer was no, although I am sure it may be a topic of controversy for others. This question can be whether you get upset over how much you...

I had a rather peculiar dream last night. The message in it was essentially a flashback, except the people in it were different. The person who assaulted me was the friend and room-mate of my former significant other. This was how we got know one another and how he managed to spin me into his...

I had a rather peculiar dream last night. The message in it was essentially a flashback, except the people in it were different. The person who assaulted me was the friend and roommate of my former significant other. This was how we got know one another and how he managed to spin me into his...

Lately I've been really riding the happy train. The last few days have felt like the sun's shined brighter, the air smells fresher and my senses feel like they've been heightened and more receptive to everything around me. Yesterday I put the holding deposit on my new apartment (hooray)! This...

I'm broken. I feel like I can't do anything right. I feel like I'm a disappointment and causing difficulty for others including those that care for me the deepest. If people are this broken, can they ever be a functional part of society ever again? Or am I doomed to feel like "yes, the world...

I should be happy that my supporter/boyfriend is coming back to town tomorrow evening. He's been out of town on a business trip since Tuesday morning this week and that was only a day after the whole crap happened with his roommate/my trigger. It's not that I'm avoiding his return, I'm just...

My therapist and I talked on the phone today about how my brain tends to fixate on things that are harmful for me to dwell on. I mentioned to her that I have taken up a new hobby to help distract myself from the fixation and to permit for me to do something I enjoy. My new hobby is photography...

Breathing is such a challenge right now. I can't fight this feeling of wanting to just disappear. I don't feel safe, and I can't stop crying. I know that if I left, I would leave some very sad people behind, and I wouldn't want to hurt the people that I love and care for; that and having to go...

A known trigger of mine is downstairs, and just hearing her footsteps puts me on edge. I went from being completely complacent and happy to furrow-browed and frightened. I need to go downstairs to get the laundry from the dryer, and to start cooking dinner (since I haven't eaten all day), but I...

I had a really rough day at work. All my experiments were having issues that were beyond my control. Then was fortunate enough to be able to call it a day at a reasonable enough hour to go exercise after work. Instead I locked myself out of my car and ended up waiting an hour for AAA come let...

I've been living in the same studio that my trauma happened. I have been running away from it for the first 6 months every night, and from them on every night that I did spend there in my own bed at my studio apartment, I had nightmares, restless nights, waking in fright, feeling like I had to...

Hi all, I am new to this forum, however, I've been dealing with PTSD for almost a year now from the day of my traumatic event. I've been seeing a behavioral therapist on a monthly basis starting from the week of the incident and it really has helped me with many of the obstacles I have had to...