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Tired of always feeling like I'm auditioning for people. My Worker's Comp people literally think I'll be back at work in a few weeks maybe a few months and are asking for a resume. I can barely get out of bed, eat or shower. Wtf are they thinking? The idea of writing a resume and even thinking...

Not sure yet. I was on a downloading binge. The Good, The Bad and The Ugly? French Connection?

Boobs. It was a good boob-day. One of the last hot days of the summer. Sometimes seeing a sexy woman is all you need at that moment. Makes ME smile.

To the f*cking millennial douchecanoes at my local Starbucks. How the f*cking f*ck do you run out of f*cking Dark Roast? Ok number one you're a f*cking coffee shop. You NEVER run out of coffee. Let alone your number one f*cking c*nting f*cking seller at 8am. Number f*cking two why is your...

No. This isn't a pleasant topic but we ignore the negative at our own peril. What are some things that PTSD confirmed about your less-pleasant opinions of people and life; or, conversely, did PTSD show you new ugly truths in the behaviour of others, or just how damn unfair the universe can be...

This is a very important thread. We all need to talk about anger. It's a subject I don't see often enough. I've sworn off reading any news or current events. This is very difficult as I've been a news junkie since I was child. I was doing well for a few days but the itch kicked in today and...

Exhaustion. Utter exhaustion.

The South Park episode when Timmy and Jimmy become Crips gang members.

Little Child Runnin Wild by Curtis Mayfield.

I need to go on an old movie binge. I'm glad my horrible nihilistic descent is lifting. I can feel it. Being alone has never felt so right. Still craving Indian food. One day at a time actually works. I hate it when the worst cliches are right.

That I'm very tired of trying to be the last honest man. It cost me everything. I'm not going to start being dishonest. I'm just going to assume everyone else is dishonest. I was foolish enough to believe the opposite.

I'm smoking really good shit so everything is off period, but I feel oddly outside normal time. Up all night then with surprisingly little sleep I'm up again. I'm tired but I'm not. I'm a loner and hermit by nature. Sometimes I peer through the blinds and wonder if I'm missing anything...

I realize that I will get better. I'm in agony but underneath a plan is forming. I hope I haven't damaged myself to the point I'm unable to do it.

I don't know if this helps but I focus on something that's not done yet. Last year I was low. Total blackness. But i realized I was reading a great book and no f*cking way I was not going to complete it. This summer it was waiting for the new Arcade Fire album. It helps.

Tolerance. I'm so intolerant of who I am, my faults, my opinions.

It helps me knowing that now it's fleeting and likely insincere. Maybe it always was but I didn't notice? I've never ever liked asking for help because only burdens ask for help. That's honestly what I believed. So over the years I've allowed a few people in that I can ask for help. Because I...

This is my mother's handiwork. It's so embarrassing to admit this still handicaps me. I was subjected to a lot of shaming and guilt coming up. I've recently gained some control of it thanks to my ex-wife. I carried the guilt of our marriage ending, even though she was just as much to blame, just...

I read almost 100 pages of a very intense book about atheism. I've been nibbling on it for weeks. Nice to get some momentum. I need to stop underlining and making notes. I shut down my IG accounts. I'm a photographer so that burned. But I need to focus. I have to get to a point where I can at...

My m Sorry for potato-post above. I really dislike iPhone keys.

Been dealing with GERD for years. Get biannual scopes for Barrett's. Spent years on PPIs but now can't afford them. Back to Zantac. Refuse to give up coffee or Coke Zero. f*ck it. I have few pleasures. I'm not giving up two of them. I carry almost all my stress in my stomach. Any one else...

Honestly, even with all this agony, nothing significant. Things happen. This is life. If you don't leave with scars have you really lived? PTSD simply caught me off guard and wiped the floor with me. My brain is my glass jaw. For that reason alone it scares me. Even in my worst depression and...

Touch. I have extreme skin hunger. I haven't been sincerely touched by another human in ten months.

I feel this deep. It's as if what I manifest on a daily basis to others and even myself is that cliched tip of the iceberg. Yes ok I have PTSD. today my hyperarosal is muted so I can go have coffee without sitting there like a clenched fist fixating on some annoying hipster in the cafe or...

I don't believe your mother is a pedophile based on what you've told me. She may have imappropriate boundary and attachment issues with your brother and be BPD. What concerns me is the request for pictures. You weren't clear on whether they were abuse images (ie: cp) or normal photos. If they...

Electric Blue by Arcade Fire. Music literally keeps me alive.